Perhaps his tone was more peremptory than he knew. Anstice looked at
him with heightened colour in her cheeks.
"I don't think that was mentioned in our bond," she said in her
quietest tone.
He looked quite startled, then smiled at her. Justin's smiles were rare.
Anstice felt ashamed of herself.
"Then I will plead like Ruffie. Please! Please! Please!"
Without a word Anstice seated herself at the piano. She sang first a
lullaby, and as she sang Justin leant his head back against the cushion
in his chair and closed his eyes.
Then she sang an old English ballad, and she finished with "Robin
Adair."
"That's because we're close to Scotland here," she said, laughing,
as she left the piano. "I don't sing in public, so you must consider
yourself favoured. It is the old simple ballads I sing to the children.
The modern young people would be disgusted, but they are not critical
yet."
"Thank you. I am not modern, and I like ballads better than the French
and Italian operatic music which one hears so much nowadays. Now will
you sit down? I want to talk to you. The winter is going. Don't you
think that a horse would take you over the Fells better than your two
legs? I don't like your wandering about alone. You do ride?"
"Yes, I do," said Anstice. "I won't pretend that I shouldn't like a
steed, for I should love to have one, but you mustn't make me give
up my walking. It is good for one's health; and to wander out on the
short turf up amongst the Fells and mountains is a continual delight to
me. You must remember I have the car now. If you could afford it, two
rough mountain ponies for the little girls would give them tremendous
pleasure. They ride the old pony when they get the chance, but his back
is too broad for them, and now Ruffie uses him, they have to be content
with walking."
"I'll see what I can do in that way, but if they ride, they'll be
getting into mischief."
"I don't think so. It will keep them out of mischief. I wish you were a
little fonder of your small daughters."
He contracted his brows.
"They're too like their mother," he said shortly.
"That isn't their fault, poor mites! They're conscious of your
indifference to them, which is bad for you, and bad for them. I don't
want to ask you about the past, but doesn't time make us more tender
with the erring? If you could have gentler thoughts—"
He interrupted her.
"Do you think I can ever forget," he said in a tone of concentrated
bitterness, "that it is owing to her failure as wife and mother that my
only son is as he is. He might have been a strong, sturdy youngster, in
full health and strength of body, instead of which he is a suffering,
mutilated cripple. Whilst I have him before my eyes, do you think I can
ever have gentle thoughts of his mother?"
Anstice had never realized how much he felt his boy's deformity. She
said very gently:
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