"I think it was a dream that made me," said Anstice very simply. "The
thought of the poor neglected children had most weight with me. I
dreamt that they were in an open boat helpless at the mercy of the
waves, and calling out to me to rescue them."
"I have wronged you," said Justin; "and I ask your forgiveness."
"No," said Anstice quietly, "that is unnecessary. I have been thinking
that I wronged you. I have taken different views of life since I came
here, and I think that no two people ought to wed unless there is real
love between them. It is binding two souls in chains; you, a man, ought
to woo the wife of your choice, not be tied down by legal marriage to
one for whom you have no liking, nor perhaps respect."
"Don't talk like that."
Justin's voice was almost sharp.
"I respected you from the first day I saw you. And you must know that
I've had more than a liking for you. Well, the long and short of it
is, that we have started our married life all wrong, and we're going,
I hope, to put it right. Anstice—" he dropped his masterful tone
and became almost humble—"there is only one thing that will keep a
man's life straight and pure, and that is faith in a woman. I've been
without it these many years, and though I've steered away from some
evils through natural distaste, I've given myself over to rancour and
bitterness and selfishness. You've given me that faith again, Anstice.
May God help me to profit by it."
Anstice sat silent. Her eyes were misty, her hands clenched each other
tightly, then after a moment she said:
"It is faith in God, not in woman, that you need, Justin. Faulty,
erring woman will let you down over and over again."
"Well, all this has been simmering in my mind whilst I fished in
Norway," Justin went on, "but through it and above it surged a great
flood which has swept me to your feet. Right or wrong as our past has
been, I can offer you all my heart's love, Anstice. I want you, not for
what you have done, and are still doing for me, but for you yourself.
And this, and this alone, has brought me home. I cannot live without
you. I don't want to be like a polite stranger. I want to be your best
beloved, as you are to me. Can you take me with all my selfishness and
make a better man of me? We have been good comrades and friends; I want
to be something truer and deeper. Have I taken you by surprise?"
Anstice still looked away over the lake, but she turned her head at
last, and her eyes sought his in wistful appeal.
"Are you sure that your heart wants me, Justin?"
"As sure as the sun above us," said Justin fervently, and then he put
his arm around her, and drew her close to himself.
"Have I really won you? Tell me with your own lips."
"I have been yours for a long time," said Anstice.
"Then why have you been so cold and cruel to me? Why did you not let me
see a little of your heart?"
Anstice shook her head, and smiled into his eyes.
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