"You led a more active life than Ruffie. He has time and opportunity to
think out things. But I don't think it's unnatural for children to be
religious. They take to it like ducklings take to water. It is their
natural atmosphere. 'Of such is the Kingdom of Heaven.'"
"I don't want him to soar above me," persisted Justin. "He has always
thought the world of his Dad. I am afraid of him learning to criticize
my ideals, to find them empty and rotten, and then have a profound pity
and contempt for me."
"Oh, Justin, nice children are never critics. Ruffie will never be a
prig. I remember, as a child, I always thought every grown-up person
was naturally good, with the exception perhaps of thieves, drunkards
and murderers. Don't you think it would be possible to raise your
ideals above Ruffie's head and keep them there?"
Justin looked at her with a smile. They were sitting together on the
terrace, as they generally did after dinner, he smoking, she with a bit
of work between her busy fingers.
"What are my ideals?" he said slowly. "I am changing them, you know,
since I have known you. A year or two ago, they were to be free of all
worry and responsibility, to laze in the sun in foreign climes, to be
beyond the reach of civilization's claims. I think to-day my ideal is
to make myself worthy of my wife. I want her to respect me, as well as
love me. If I reach her standard, I shall be content."
"Oh, Justin!" Anstice's voice was almost pained, then she smiled. "And
if we love, it makes all things easy. If we love the One who loves us,
we shall try to reach His Standard, and do what He would have us do. We
must try together to reach God's Standard."
Justin shrugged his shoulders.
"I shall never be as religious as you are," he said, "but I wouldn't
have you otherwise; for you're just perfect in my eyes!"
He would seldom be drawn into religious argument; and yet there was
nothing he liked better than being an unseen listener to Anstice's
Sunday stories, and talks with the children.
She did not worry him with overmuch talk, but she prayed for him
earnestly and continuously.
One day, she had a letter from Louise telling her of the death of her
uncle. She at once went over to her, and stayed with her till after the
funeral.
For the next few weeks Louise was a good deal at Butterdale. She was
going to be married almost at once, and Anstice insisted that she must
be married from the Manor. Justin was willing; he took a liking to the
girl. Her brightness and naturalness pleased him; and he promised, if
she had no nearer friend or relative, to give her away.
"I have no one," she said simply; "there are not many with so few
relations as I." And then she talked to Anstice about her future
prospects. "I am going to live in the farm with George and Minna. She
is very ill, I'm afraid, but I shall be able to nurse her."
"My dear child, what a sad beginning to your married life!"
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