England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction; Families -- Fiction
'I do not deny that at one time the thought gave me pain, and that I
doubted my ability to carry out my plan, but now it is different. I love
her well enough to wish to be her protector; well enough to redeem her
father's trust. In making this young orphan my wife, I shall console
myself; my conscience and my heart will be alike satisfied.'
'She is very young,' began Mildred, but he interrupted her a little
sadly.
'That is my only remaining difficulty--she is so young. The discrepancy
in our ages is so apparent. I sometimes doubt whether I am right in
asking her to sacrifice herself.'
A strange smile passed over Mildred's face. 'Are you sure she will
regard it in that light, Dr. Heriot?'
'What do you think?' he returned, eagerly. 'It is there I want your
advice. I am not disinterested. I fear my own selfishness, my hearth is
so lonely. Think how this young girl, with her sweet looks and words,
will brighten it. Dare I venture it? Is Polly to be won?'
'She is too young to have formed another attachment,' mused Mildred. 'As
far as I know, she is absolutely free; but I cannot tell, it is not
always easy to read girls.' A fleeting thought of Roy, and a probable
childish entanglement, passed through Mildred's mind as she spoke, but
the next moment it was dismissed as absurd. They were on excellent
terms, it was true, but Polly's frank, sisterly affection was too openly
expressed to excite suspicion, while Roy's flirtations were known to be
legion. A perfectly bewildering number of Christian names were carefully
entered in Polly's pocket-book, annotated by Roy himself. Polly was
cognisant of all his love affairs, and alternately coaxed and scolded
him out of his secrets.
'And you think she could be induced to care for her old guardian?' asked
Dr. Heriot, and there was no mistaking the real anxiety of his tone.
'Why do you call yourself old?' returned Mildred, almost brusquely. 'If
Polly be fond of you, she will not find fault with your years. Most men
do not call themselves old at eight-and-thirty.'
'But I have not led the life of most men,' was the sorrowful reply.
'Sometimes I fear a bright young girl will be no mate for my sadness.'
'It has not turned you into a misanthrope; you must not be discouraged,
Dr. Heriot; trouble has made you faint-hearted. The best of your life
lies before you, you may be sure of that.'
'You know how to comfort, Miss Lambert. You lull fears to sleep so
sweetly that they never wake again. You will wish me success, then?'
'Yes, I will wish you success,' she returned, with a strange melancholy
in her voice. Was it for her to tell him that he was deceiving himself;
that benevolence and fancy were painting for him a future that could
never be verified?
He would take this young girl into the shelter of his honest heart, but
would he satisfy her, would he satisfy himself?
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