Hesperus; or, Forty-Five Dog-Post-Days: A Biography. Vol. II.Jean Paul
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Hesperus; or, Forty-Five Dog-Post-Days: A Biography. Vol. II.
Jean Paul
Fiction
He stepped hastily into the beaming day, to overtake the giver, whose
morning-offering he unhappily, for fear of destroying it, could no more
press to his heart than he could herself. O how it saddened him, when
he stood in the open air before the Moravian churchyard of the heavenly
night which had _gone home_, before the reposing garden, and when he
looked upon the bald, close-shaven, trodden-down dancing-floor, and on
the silent nightingale's-bush, and on the hills where the children were
tending sheep, disrobed of yesterday's finery! Then the forgotten dream
again appeared and said: Weep once more, for the rose-feast of thy life
concludes to-day, and the last of the _four_ rivers of Paradise in a
few hours will utterly dry up!--"O ye fair days," said Victor, "ye
deserve that I should leave you with a tenderness that knows no measure
and with unnumbered tears!"--He fled from the too harsh daylight into
the cell of crape, that it might recolor the brilliant foreground of
the day into a dim back-ground, overspread with the moonshine of
yesterday; and under this pall of the pale dead night he proposed to
himself to indulge his heart, so soon to be impoverished, with its last
joy, namely, its yearning, in utter overmeasure. He stepped out of the
tent, but the nocturnal moonshine faded not from the lawn; he looked up
into the blue heaven, which touches us with _one_ long flame, but the
veiled stars of the wintry night sent little outwelling rays to the
eclipsed soul; he said to himself, indeed, "The ice-mountain on which
hitherto my reason has delivered half sermons-on-the-mount, has shrunk
up under the glow of joy to a mole-hill," but he added, "To-day I care
for nothing."
He came to Emanuel with wet eyes. The latter told him that the first
link of yesterday's chain of flowers, namely the Briton with his
people, had already loosed itself in the night. But the longer he
looked on Emanuel and thought of the morrow,--for to-morrow before day
he too would softly close the garden gate of this Paradise behind, and
this afternoon he is to take leave of the Abbess and this evening of
his beloved, in order not to hinder her in the reading out of the
well-known angel's-epistle,--so much the more painful was the straining
of his eyes, and he preferred to go out, with a heart bleeding itself
full, into the open air, and led the blind one with him, who suspected
nothing, saw nothing, and before whom, besides, one loved to lay bare
his innermost heart as before a child.
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