The following year Jean and her bairns came to live at Ellisland. He
received them with quiet affection, and Jean, who had grown strangely
humbled and passive, did her utmost to please him at all times, never
referring to the past, and tactfully avoiding all irritating subjects,
and by her soothing presence, her loving words of comfort and sympathy,
soon made her presence indispensable to her moody husband. Another year
passed by, a year of anxiety for Jean, who was compelled to witness her
husband’s lapses from sobriety, which now came so often, and to watch his
health decline slowly, but surely, in consequence. In the midst of all
his wanderings Robert met nothing in his domestic circle but gentleness
and forgiveness, except the gnawings of his own remorse. He acknowledged
his transgressions to his patient wife, promised amendment, and again
received pardon for his offenses. But as the strength of his body
decayed, his resolution became feebler, and habit acquired predominating
strength.
All this time Robert had entertained hopes of promotion in the exercise,
but circumstances occurred which retarded their fulfillment, and which in
his own mind destroyed all expectation of their ever being fulfilled. His
steady friend, Mr. Mackenzie, interposed his good offices in his behalf,
however, and he was suffered to retain his situation, but given to
understand that his promotion was deferred, and must depend on his future
behavior. This circumstance made a deep impression on Robert. He fancied
that everyone held him in contemptuous pity, as a man of some genius who
had dwindled into a paltry exciseman, and who was slinking out the rest
of his insignificant existence in the meanest of pursuits, and among the
lowest of mankind; and for days he would sit quietly on the banks of the
river plunged in the gloomiest meditation.
About this time he received word of Lord Glencairn’s death. The news
plunged him into another fit of melancholy gloom, lessened somewhat,
however, by the assurance that his noble benefactor had died knowing the
truth, believing in Robert’s innocence, and asking his forgiveness.
As his health declined his thoughts became more and more fixed upon Mary,
who was once more in Mossgiel at Colonel Montgomery’s. He yearned with
bitter longing to gaze upon her sweet face again, to hear her dear voice
speak his name. These thoughts he strove vainly to conquer, to banish
from his mind, for Jean’s patience and goodness, her loving forbearance,
filled him with shame at his own unworthiness. But she gave no sign
of the bitter heartache she endured. She accepted it all in patient
resignation, striving by uniform prudence and good management to relieve
his distress of mind regarding the material welfare of his little flock.
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