The door opened and Jean quietly entered the room, her tense, white face
full of patient sorrow. She had sat in the kitchen for an eternity it
seemed to the waiting woman, while Mary was taking her farewell of her
husband. She had tried to talk to Gilbert, to interest herself in the
news of home, but the words simply refused to leave her lips, and so she
had sat there, listlessly watching the children playing around their
uncle’s knee, her ears straining to hear some sound from the other room.
No one knew how she suffered, to step aside, to welcome to her home his
former sweetheart, to know they were there clasped in each other’s arms;
and yet she did not feel bitter toward Mary somehow, strange as it might
seem. She pitied her, she pitied them both, and it filled her with a
strange feeling of surprise that she could feel so. Still loving Robert
as fondly as she did, she could not help the feeling of despair which
crept over her at times, to know, to fully realize, that she held only a
secondary place in his affections, to hear him calling for another, for
Mary. Sometimes in thought she caught herself bitterly arraigning him for
his thoughtlessness, his apparent heartlessness; then the thought of his
weak condition, his ill health, his distracted state of mind, these past
months, tempered her judgment. He was hardly responsible for his actions,
and if he were conscious of his own selfishness he had lost the power,
the strength of will, to restrain his feverish impulses. She wondered
vaguely if it would be different when—when she had passed away forever—if
her memory would still come between them. She hoped not—she prayed that
it might not be so.
Gilbert had left her to her silent musings, and had gone out to harness
the horses. Returning, he told her that they must start at once, so she
had opened the door to tell them, and as her eyes took in the misery
which was reflected in their white, drawn faces she was moved to intense
pity, and the tears rained slowly down her cheeks.
“Come, Mary, Gilbert says ’tis time to start,” she faltered. They both
looked up slowly at the sound of her voice, then gazed dully into each
other’s eyes. Presently Mary rose from her chair and stood up unsteadily,
stretching out her little, cold, white hands to Robert, who clutched
them in his own feverish palms as a drowning man clutches a straw.
“The time has come to part, laddie,” she said bravely, a wan little smile
on her bluish lips.
A violent shuddering seized him, he did not move for a moment. Finally
he staggered to his feet, and a quiver of agony passed over his face. He
looked at her with dulled, glazed eyes and his face assumed a ghastly hue.
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