Then whilst his throbbing veins beat high
With every impulse of delight,
Dash from his lips the cup of joy,
And shroud the scene in shades of night;
And let despair, with wizard light,
Disclose the yawning gulf below,
And pour incessant on his sight,
Her spectred ills and shapes of woe.
For some moments Robert sat there, apparently dead to his surroundings.
He had not looked up or moved as the door closed upon the retreating
figures. He seemed to be in a state of complete exhaustion of mind and
body. Presently the sound of the carriage rolling over the swishing,
muddy driveway roused him from his lethargy. Raising his head he looked
wildly around the room—then paused and listened—he was as one in a dream,
realizing nothing plainly. He could hardly remember what had taken place
during the past few minutes; he could grasp nothing tangible in thought
or memory, till with a wild start he seemed to awake, as the rattle of
the passing wheels brought back recollection. He staggered to the window
and, throwing back the lattice, gazed out at the rapidly retreating
blur of moving wheels and horses and shapeless figures, and watched it
till it was lost to sight. As he stood there a soft change, a delicate
transparency, swept over the dark bosom of the sky. Pale pink streaks
glittered on the dusky horizon—darts of light began to climb upward into
the clouds, and to plunge downward upon the waving field of hay; the
radiance spread swiftly, till suddenly the whole heavens were bathed in
the glorious light, and the last cloud, fading into nothingness, revealed
the sun in all its matchless glory, hanging low in the sky just above
the hills, behind which it would soon drop in stately splendor. Slowly
the watcher sank down to his knees and leaned his tired head against the
sash, his eyes closed and sunken.
“She is gone, gone,” he murmured brokenly, “an’ I am left all alone noo,
all alone.” Jean bent over him with pathetic tenderness, and taking his
limp hand in her own warm palm, she said with timid reproach:
“Not alone, Robert, while you have your—bairns—and me.” She feared to
call his attention to herself in the midst of his grief, lest he might
revile her for standing between him and happiness; but he did not hear.
“Oh, Jean, how can I take up the burden of life again?” he cried
weakly, clinging to her hand with despairing strength. It thrilled her
strangely to feel the grasp of his hand, to feel his weakness, his sudden
dependence, the appeal in his dark, mournful eyes raised to hers so
pitifully; she knelt beside him and drew his head down on her heaving
bosom.
“Ye must be brave,” she told him, her voice trembling with a new-found
happiness, a sudden joy. He needed her now, needed her love and care more
than ever. Then she continued softly, her voice vibrating with thrilling
intensity, “Ye have much to live for yet, lad. Ye must be strong, ye must
be brave. Pluck up your courage! I’ll help ye.”
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