Hildebrand; or, The Days of Queen Elizabeth, An Historic Romance, Vol. 1 of 3Anonymous
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Hildebrand; or, The Days of Queen Elizabeth, An Historic Romance, Vol. 1 of 3
Anonymous
Great Britain -- History -- Elizabeth, 1558-1603 -- Fiction
Solitude and bondage are melancholy companions. Hearts that never
knew the melting influence of pity, or experienced the thrill
of fear, but met every vicissitude with a stern and unbending
front, have been cowed and overwhelmed by their first whispers,
and have been hurried on, by an enlarged and more intimate
fellowship, into distraction and despair. They are a sort of
living death, enclosing the spark of life in a walled grave,
where the air, so sweet and buoyant without, is pestilence, and
one’s breath corruption. Acquainted with these, we seem to be
dead before our time, and yet, though shut out from action, to
live in thought,--to suffer all the terror and captivity of the
grave, and be convulsed with the workings of a restless vitality.
As he heard the fastenings of his dungeon-door secured, a chill
like that of death, if one can form a conception of the last
sensibility of the dying, crept through the bosom of Hildebrand.
He was there alone--without solace, without hope, without even
God.
He durst not pray. The reflection that he had been brought into
this situation by his own imprudence--nay, by a corrupt and
abandoned selfishness, which affected the peace of another--this
reflection was upon him; and, when he thought of imploring the
protection of Heaven, it met his prayer in his throat, and turned
it back with a reproach.
But the image of Inez, though predominant, was not his only
accuser. If, urged by despair, he drove it for a moment from his
mind, a hundred bitter and remorseful recollections rushed into
its place. His imprudence, if so mild a term may be retained, had
not only brought destruction on himself, from which there was no
prospect of escape, but, in its consequences, would entail ruin
on others. He could not think of his ship, lying in an enemy’s
harbour, within the range of the batteries, and every moment
liable to be visited by the local officials, without a thrill of
anguish. Even his benefactor, Sir Walter Raleigh, would not be
exempt from the effects of his folly; and, in the utter failure
of his design on the Mexican fleet, which he had laboured so
diligently to accomplish, and in which he had embarked the chief
part of his fortune, would suffer irreparable detriment. Nor did
Hildebrand forget, while pursuing this train of reflection, to
charge himself with having failed seriously in his duty to his
country. The assertion of Don Felix, on his being arrested, that
the Spanish government contemplated the invasion of England,
and which the martial preparations everywhere in progress amply
corroborated, afforded ground to his conscience for a more
startling accusation, and a more bitter and excruciating reproach.
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