"I have no family, Marianne. I am entirely my own master, and I love
you. If you swear to me that you have not been Guy's mistress--"
"Nobody has the right to say that he has even touched my lips," replied
Marianne firmly. "Only one man, he who took me, an innocent girl, and
left me heart-broken, disgusted, believing I should never again love,
before I met you. He is dead."
"I know," said Rosas, "you confided that to me formerly.--A widow save
in name, I offer you, yes, I! my name, my love, my whole life--will you
take them?"
"Eh! you know perfectly well that I love you!" she exclaimed, as she
frantically gave him the burning and penetrating kiss that had never
left his lips since the soiree at Sabine's.
"Then, no one--no one?" Jose repeated.
"No one!"
"On honor?"
"On honor!"
"Oh! how I love you!" he said, distractedly, all his passion shattering
his coldness of manner, as the sun melts the snow. "If you but knew how
jealous and crazed I am about you!--I desire you, I adore you, and I
condemn myself to remain glacial before you, beneath your glance that
fires my blood--I love you, and the recollection of Guy hindered me from
telling you that all that is mine belongs to you--I am a ferocious
creature, you know, capable of mad outbursts, senseless anger, and
unreasoning flight--Yes, I have wished to escape from you again. Well!
no, I remain with you; I love you, I love you!--You shall be my wife, do
you hear? My wife!--Ah! what a moment of bliss! I have loved you for
years! Have you not seen it, Marianne?"
"I have seen it and I loved you! I also have kept silence! I saw plainly
that you believed that I had given myself to another--No, no, I am
yours, nothing but yours! All my love, all myself, take it; I have kept
it for you; for I hate the past, more than that, I do not know that it
exists--It is despised, obliterated, it is nothing! But you, ah! you,
you are my life!"
She left Jose's, her youth renewed, haughty, intoxicated with delight.
She walked along alone, in the paths of the Champs-Elysees, the rusty
leaves falling in showers at the breath of the already cold wind, her
heels ringing on the damp asphalt. She marched straight ahead, her
thoughts afire from her intoxicating emotions. It seemed that Paris
belonged to her.
That evening, she was to go to the theatre. It was arranged that Vaudrey
should wait for her at the entrance with a hired carriage and take her
to Rue Prony. She wrote to him that she could not leave the house. A
slight headache. Uncle Kayser undertook to have the letter taken by a
commissionaire.
"Unless you would rather have me go to the ministry!"
"Are you mad?" Marianne said.
"That is true, it would be immoral."
She wished to have the evening to herself, quite alone, so that she
could let her dreams take flight.
Dreams? Nonsense! On the contrary, it was a dazzling reality: a fortune,
a title, a positive escape from want and the mire. What a revenge!
"It is enough to drive one mad!"
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