Deception -- Fiction; England -- Social life and customs -- 20th century -- Fiction; Fiancées -- Fiction; Love stories
This was all so foreign to his Near Oriental vocabulary that I nearly
laughed. But not quite. For it was being borne in upon me still more
clearly that I didn’t care for this suggestion of his at all. He was
actually asking for my help and co-operation, not in a sham rôle, but a
_real_ one? Well, I thought, what _cheek_!
“If you mean,” I said, “that you want me to promise not to ‘rag’—not
to—to banter you again about all this; not to go on saying things that
mean one thing for you and another to whoever else hears them, and all
that——”
I was going to say that this I might promise; although I felt he was
asking for a good deal—for his official _fiancée’s_ one safety-valve, in
fact!
“No, no! That’s not what I mean,” he put in. “When I say ‘friends,’ I
mean it. Genuine friends. On the terms we might be on if we weren’t en—if
we hadn’t this ‘engagement’ between us.”
“How _can_ we be that?” said I emphatically.
“Why can’t we?” he persisted.
“Why? Because I—I don’t see how I could be expected to answer such a
question!”
He didn’t _say_, “You agreed to the other!” But I knew some men might. So
I went on trying to explain to this specially obtuse one.
“Don’t you see how much easier it is to pretend to be engaged or even—in
love with a person, than to turn round and _like_ them because you’re
asked to?”
“Is it?”
“But of _course_ it is!” said I. “One _can_ act being—engaged and all
that. One can’t force oneself into friendship, real liking.” (Stupid, he
was; it was just like his not seeing the difference between accepting
furs—and a frock!) “One simply can’t make oneself _like_. That is asking
too much. And I never bargained for it. It wasn’t——”
—“In the arrangement,” I nearly said.
I might just as well have said it! For:
“Damn—dash that infernal arrangement!” muttered my employer heatedly,
crunching, in the absence of Cariad, the well-kept gravel beneath his
heel. “Can’t you forget that, leave that alone for the time being? It
would be so much easier——”
“Yes! For you perhaps!” I retorted. “But not easy for me; and it’s
impossible for me to feel like being ‘friends’ to order!”
He said nothing for a minute. Then he began again quietly. “You mean you
dislike me?”
“I don’t even know you well enough for really liking or disliking,” I
argued coldly. “And besides, what have we—you and I—in common, that we
should expect to get on well together?”
I knew what a hopeless question _that_ is to answer about almost any two
persons!
He said rather helplessly, “Well, but hang it all! What have you in
common with——”
Here I _felt_, suspended between us in the dusk like a Mahomet’s coffin,
the name of Sydney Vandeleur!
But the Governor changed his mind about uttering it.
He _said_:
“For instance, what can you have in common with a man like Montresor?
You’re twenty-one. He’s what?—Fifty? Sixty? Yet you can talk—you can——You
seem to get on all right with him.”
“Naturally!” I said.
The Governor said nothing.
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