Deception -- Fiction; England -- Social life and customs -- 20th century -- Fiction; Fiancées -- Fiction; Love stories
“Are you—are you _surprised_ at that? Any girl,” I forced myself to say,
“would have been furious.”
“You mean,” quickly, “that any girl is furious when she’s kissed.”
“Oh, _I_ don’t know. I’m not thinking of other girls!”
“Any girl _I_ kissed, then?”
“No”—the Charrier girl’s face flashed before me, and a bitter little
laugh escaped me as I spoke—“oh, _no_.”
“You mean only yourself, then?”
“I suppose so, but——”
“_You_ objected, strenuously enough. Why?”
“‘_Why?_’—”
“Was it”—he was cross-examining me again—“because it was I who kissed
you, or,” he paused, “because it was a merely official lover who did so?”
I was caught; there was no direct answer I could make.
“I hated it!” I cried defensively.
He varied the form, not the question.
“It, or the circumstances?”
“Oh! Anything you like.”
“But which?” he persisted. “There’s a world of difference between the
two. If you please, Miss Trant—”
(How dared he use that authoritative tone for which I detested and adored
him so!)
—“I want to know which it was?”
“Do you think I would stay”—I tried to fence—“after being treated like
that? It was”—I groped for a strong enough word—“infamous of you, Mr.
Waters!”
“Of me?” he said. “It would have been equally so of any man?”
“Far worse of _you_!” I blurted out before I could recall it.
“Why? Because I’d no right?—But nor has any other man, apparently?” he
added questioningly.
“Oh, _none_.”
“Then,” he said, and it sounded almost triumphant, “am _I_ so specially
hateful to you?”
“Yes.”
“_Yes?_” he caught up.
“_No!_ Oh—” I felt myself shaking all over as I tried to wriggle out of
this corner into which he’d got me. What was he doing? Had he guessed?
Guessed that I cared? Then why drive it home?... It was worse than
cruelty ... it was—“anything you like, if you must go on like this.
Only—please—please _don’t_ ask—anything.” And I stopped on the sob that I
could only just keep back.
“Ah,” he said slowly. Still I couldn’t look at him, but I heard a change
in his voice as he added, “Very well; what excuse do you expect me to
offer?”
“Excuse?” I flamed. I was too afraid I should break down in earnest and
disgrace myself. “There _is_ no excuse you can possibly make.”
“Isn’t there? There might be more than one, I think,” he said, quite
gently still. “I might put forward, for instance, that I’m only an
ordinary man, subject to temptation, and that you—if you’ll allow me to
say so, Miss Trant—are a very lovely girl.”
“Ah, no! Don’t!” I cried out, stung. “_Not_ that sort of thing.”
“Quite right,” he broke in promptly, but still quietly. A second’s pause,
then—
“There _would_ be no excuse for snatching at you like that, Nancy, if
there weren’t a reason. And the reason, if you really haven’t guessed it,
is, as it happens——”
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