Deception -- Fiction; England -- Social life and customs -- 20th century -- Fiction; Fiancées -- Fiction; Love stories
Ah! So I had got him to speak his mind at last, his own mind that he
would have given anything not to have revealed to any employee! More than
that, I’d driven him into being inexcusably rude to a woman. His face,
where the tan had deepened to a sullen red, his lips, compressed into
what seemed like a thin, pen-drawn line, showed me that _he_ had realized
this. _I_ don’t mean him to forget what he said. I said nothing. The most
awkward of all the many awkward pauses so far, elapsed between us as we
walked along, and before he spoke again. When he did, I saw that it cost
him more than he liked me to notice.
“Yes. You see—I ought not to have said that. I beg your pardon.”
“Oh! Please don’t! I didn’t mind it at all,” said I, better able to speak
very sweetly now that I felt I had regained some of my ascendancy. But
all the fun of “scoring” off him had gone, though I must not let him see
that. “Of course you’ve every right to say exactly what you think, just
as Theo does.”
For his face, still flushed, ruffled, and without a trace of the
“office-mask,” wore a fleeting but quite laughable likeness to his
youngest sister’s. I have heard it said of some girl, “She isn’t pretty
exactly, but she has pretty looks,” and positively, if I didn’t dislike
him so intensely, I should say that the Governor, though never handsome,
has “handsome looks” himself.
I went on, still mildly: “Only, you know, Theo and Blanche and your
mother don’t happen to think—what you’ve just said. They seem to consider
that—well! that the man I was engaged to isn’t—wouldn’t be at all to be
_pitied_!”
“I know. You needn’t tell me that. You have contrived to make all three
of them ridic—extremely fond of you!” This resentfully, realizing it
as part of my insolence to him. “My mother and the girls don’t see
through it, when you are—are covertly reminding me, in a hundred small
ways, of what I don’t need to be reminded of. _That_ would be all
right, therefore—only——Other people who came to the house might not be
so unsuspecting _They_ might chance to notice that there was something
odd—unusual—unnatural in your attitude to me.”
“But—but you said any strangeness would be put down to the awkwardness of
a girl so recently engaged?”
“No one would give _you_ much credit for being ‘awkward!’” Still more
resentfully. “And something might come out. That is why I am obliged to
ask you to be a little more guarded.”
“‘More guarded,’” I repeated meekly, like a child who is learning by
heart. “Yes. I must. I must try harder to make it seem less ‘unnatural’
that we two should be engaged.”
Again the look, instantly banished, that meant he pined to shake me.
“Thank you,” he said.
“And by the ‘other people,’ I suppose you mean this other—outspoken Mr.
Waters who is coming over to ‘inspect’ me? Do you think—are you afraid
that _he_ will be sorry for the man who is supposed to be engaged to me?”
Under his breath Mr. William Waters muttered what _sounded_, at least,
like the one word, “IMP!”
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