United States -- History -- Civil War, 1861-1865 -- Fiction
"In response to your appeal, she did make the effort you required, but
it was the effort of a mind still without hope or faith--one that saw
no remedy for the evils that had already overwhelmed her--and I must
bear witness that her efforts were as sincere as they were pathetic. We
all watched to give every assistance in our power. I've lain awake
nights, Colonel Graham, to think of remedies that would meet her needs;
and good Mrs. Mayburn and your old black cook, Aunt Sheba, prepared
food fit for the gods. You were more untiring and effective than any of
us, and the major's very infirmities were among her strongest allies.
Well, we have the result--a woman who might be a model for a goddess,
even to her tranquil face, in which there is no trace of varying human
feeling. Explanation of the evil that crushed her, hope, and faith were
not given--who can give them?--but they were essential to her from the
first. Unbelief, which is a refuge to some, was an abyss to her. In it
she struggled and groped until her mind, appalled and discouraged and
overwhelmed, refused to act at all. In one sense it is a merciful
oblivion, in another a fatal one, from which she must be aroused if
possible. But it's a hard, hard case."
"You make it hard indeed," said Graham, desperately. "What faith can I
instil except the one I have? I can't lie, even for Grace Hilland. She
knew well once that I could easily die for her."
"Well, then," said the physician, "permit a plain, direct question.
Will you marry her?"
"Marry her--as she now is?" cried Graham, in unfeigned astonishment.
"You said you could die for her. This may be going much further. Indeed
I should call it the triumph of human affection, for in honesty I must
tell you that she may never be better, she may become worse. But I
regard it as her only chance. At any rate, she needs a vigilant
caretaker. Old Mrs. Mayburn will not be equal to the task much longer,
and her place will have to be filled by hired service. I know it is
like suggesting an almost impossible sacrifice to broach even the
thought, remembering her condition, but--"
"Dr. Markham," said Graham, pacing the floor in great agitation, "you
wholly misunderstand me. I was thinking of her, not of myself. What
right have I to marry Grace Hilland without her consent? She could give
no intelligent assent at present."
"The right of your love; the right her husband gave when he committed
her to your care; the right of your desire to prevent her from drifting
into hopeless, lifelong imbecility, wherein she would be almost at the
mercy of hired attendants, helpless to shield herself from any and
every wrong; the right of a man to sacrifice himself absolutely for
another if he chooses."
"But she might waken from this mental trance and feel that I had taken
a most dishonorable advantage of her helplessness."
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