“Of the plains of Champagne and the snowy, storm-beaten but sublime
Alps, what young man would choose the chalky, monotonous level? No; such
comparisons are fatal and wrong on the threshold of the Mairie. Alas!
only the experience of life can teach us that marriage excludes passion,
that a family cannot have its foundation on the tempests of love. After
having dreamed of impossible love, with its infinite caprices, after
having tasted the tormenting delights of the ideal, I saw before me
modest reality. Pity me, for what could be expected! At five-and-twenty
I did not trust myself; but I took a manful resolution.
“I went back to the Count to announce the arrival of his relations, and
I saw him grown young again in the reflected light of hope.
“‘What ails you, Maurice?’ said he, struck by my changed expression.
“‘Monsieur le Comte----’
“‘No longer Octave? You, to whom I shall owe my life, my happiness----’
“‘My dear Octave, if you should succeed in bringing the Countess back
to her duty, I have studied her well’--(he looked at me as Othello must
have looked at Iago when Iago first contrived to insinuate a suspicion
into the Moor’s mind)--‘she must never see me again; she must never know
that Maurice was your secretary. Never mention my name to her, or
all will be undone.... You have got me an appointment as Maitre
des Requetes--well, get me instead some diplomatic post abroad, a
consulship, and do not think of my marrying Amelie.--Oh! do not be
uneasy,’ I added, seeing him draw himself up, ‘I will play my part to
the end.’
“‘Poor boy!’ said he, taking my hand, which he pressed, while he kept
back the tears that were starting to his eyes.
“‘You gave me the gloves,’ I said, laughing, ‘but I have not put them
on; that is all.’
“We then agreed as to what I was to do that evening at Honorine’s house,
whither I presently returned. It was now August; the day had been hot
and stormy, but the storm hung overhead, the sky was like copper; the
scent of the flowers was heavy, I felt as if I were in an oven, and
caught myself wishing that the Countess might have set out for the
Indies; but she was sitting on a wooden bench shaped like a sofa, under
an arbor, in a loose dress of white muslin fastened with blue bows,
her hair unadorned in waving bands over her cheeks, her feet on a small
wooden stool, and showing a little way beyond her skirt. She did not
rise; she showed me with her hand to the seat by her side, saying:
“‘Now, is not life at a deadlock for me?’
“‘Life as you have made it, I replied. ‘But not the life I propose to
make for you; for, if you choose, you may be very happy....’
“‘How?’ said she; her whole person was a question.
“‘Your letter is in the Count’s hands.’
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