Hopes and Fears: or, scenes from the life of a spinsterYonge, Charlotte M. (Charlotte Mary)
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Hopes and Fears: or, scenes from the life of a spinster
Yonge, Charlotte M. (Charlotte Mary)
England -- Social conditions -- 19th century -- Fiction; Single women -- Fiction
Perhaps he felt as of old, when the lady of the Holt had struck him for
his cruelty to the mouse, or expelled him for his bad language. The same
temper remained, although self-revenge had become the only outlet. He
knew what it was that he had taken for devoted self-denial.
'Yes, Robin,' were Miss Charlecote's parting words, as she went back to
days of her own long past. 'Wilful doing right seldom tends to good,
above all when it begins by exaggeration of duty.'
And Robert was left with thoughts such as perchance might render him a
more tractable subordinate for Mr. Parsons, instead of getting into
training for the Order of St. Dominic.
Phoebe had to return less joyfully than she had gone forth. Her first
bright star of anticipation had faded, and she had partaken deeply of the
griefs of the two whom she loved so well. Not only had she to leave the
one to his gloomy lodgings in the City, and the toil that was to deaden
suffering, but the other must be parted with at the station, to return to
the lonely house, where not even old Ponto would meet her--his last hour
having, to every one's grief, come in her absence.
Phoebe could not bear the thought of that solitary return, and even at
the peril of great disappointment to her sisters, begged to sleep that
first night at the Holt, but Honor thanked her, and laughed it off: 'No,
no! my dear, I am used to be alone, and depend upon it, there will be
such an arrear of farm business for me, that I should hardly have time to
speak to you. You need not be uneasy for me, dear one, there is always
relief in having a great deal to do, and I shall know you are near, to
come if I want you. There's a great deal in that knowledge, Phoebe.'
'If I were of any use--'
'Yes, Phoebe, this visit has made you my friend instead of my
playfellow.'
Phoebe's deepening colour showed her intense gratification. 'And there
are the Sundays,' added Honor. 'I trust Miss Fennimore will let you come
to luncheon, and to the second service with me.'
'I will try very hard!'
For Phoebe could not help feeling like the canary, who sees his owner's
hand held out to catch him after his flight, or the pony who marks his
groom at the gate of the paddock. Cage and rein were not grievous, but
liberty was over, and free-will began to sink into submission, as the
chimneys of home came nearer, even though the anticipation of her
sister's happiness grew more and more on her, and compensated for all.
Shrieks of ecstasy greeted her; she was held as fast as though her
sisters feared to lose her again, and Miss Fennimore showed absolute
warmth of welcome. Foreign tongues were dispensed with, and it was a
festival evening of chatter, and display of purchases, presents, and
commissions. The evidences of Phoebe's industry were approved. Her
abstracts of her reading, her notes of museums and exhibitions, her
drawing, needlework, and new pieces of music, exceeded Miss Fennimore's
hopes, and appalled her sisters.
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