Jewish fiction; Jews -- New York (State) -- New York -- Fiction; Lower East Side (New York, N.Y.) -- Fiction; Short stories
I seized my bread and herring and tumbled down the stairs and out
into the street. I ate running, blindly pressing through the hurrying
throngs of workers--my haste and fear choking each mouthful.
I felt a strangling in my throat as I neared the sweatshop prison;
all my nerves screwed together into iron hardness to endure the day’s
torture.
For an instant I hesitated as I faced the grated window of the old
dilapidated building--dirt and decay cried out from every crumbling
brick.
In the maw of the shop, raging around me the roar and the clatter,
the clatter and the roar, the merciless grind of the pounding
machines. Half maddened, half deadened, I struggled to think, to feel,
to remember--what am I--who am I--why was I here?
I struggled in vain--bewildered and lost in a whirlpool of noise.
“America--America--where was America?” it cried in my heart.
The factory whistle--the slowing-down of the machines--the shout of
release hailing the noon hour.
I woke as from a tense nightmare--a weary waking to pain.
In the dark chaos of my brain reason began to dawn. In my stifled
heart feelings began to pulse. The wound of my wasted life began to
throb and ache. My childhood choked with drudgery--must my youth too
die--unlived?
The odor of herring and garlic--the ravenous munching of food--laughter
and loud, vulgar jokes. Was it only I who was so wretched? I looked
at those around me. Were they happy or only insensible to their
slavery? How could they laugh and joke? Why were they not torn with
rebellion against this galling grind--the crushing, deadening movements
of the body, where only hands live and hearts and brains must die?
A touch on my shoulder. I looked up. It was Yetta Solomon from the
machine next to mine.
“Here’s your tea.”
I stared at her, half hearing.
“Ain’t you going to eat nothing?”
“Oi weh! Yetta! I can’t stand it!” The cry broke from me. “I
didn’t come to America to turn into a machine. I came to America to
make from myself a person. Does America want only my hands--only the
strength of my body--not my heart--not my feelings--my thoughts?”
“Our heads ain’t smart enough,” said Yetta, practically. “We
ain’t been to school like the American-born.”
“What for did I come to America but to go to school--to learn--to
think--to make something beautiful from my life ...”
“Sh-sh! Sh-sh! The boss--the boss!” came the warning whisper.
A sudden hush fell over the shop as the boss entered. He raised his
hand.
Breathless silence.
The hard, red face with pig’s eyes held us under its sickening
spell. Again I saw the Cossack and heard him thunder the ukaz.
Prepared for disaster, the girls paled as they cast at each other
sidelong, frightened glances.
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