Stunned and hopeless, the wings of my courage broken, I groped my way back to them--back to the eager, waiting faces--back to the crushed hearts aching with mine. As I opened the door they read our defeat in my face. “Girls!” I held out my hands. “He’s fired me.” My voice died in the silence. Not a girl stirred. Their heads only bent closer over their machines. “Here, you! Get yourself out of here!” The boss thundered at me. “Bessie Sopolsky and you, Balah Rifkin, take out her machine into the hall.... I want no big-mouthed Americanerins in my shop.” Bessie Sopolsky and Balah Rifkin, their eyes black with tragedy, carried out my machine. Not a hand was held out to me, not a face met mine. I felt them shrink from me as I passed them on my way out. In the street I found I was crying. The new hope that had flowed in me so strong bled out of my veins. A moment before, our togetherness had made me believe us so strong--and now I saw each alone--crushed--broken. What were they all but crawling worms, servile grubbers for bread? I wept not so much because the girls had deserted me, but because I saw for the first time how mean, how vile, were the creatures with whom I had to work. How the fear for bread had dehumanized their last shred of humanity! I felt I had not been working among human beings, but in a jungle of savages who had to eat one another alive in order to survive. And then, in the very bitterness of my resentment, the hardness broke in me. I saw the girls through their own eyes as if I were inside of them. What else could they have done? Was not an immediate crust of bread for Balah Rifkin’s children more urgent than truth--more vital than honor? Could it be that they ever had dreamed of America as I had dreamed? Had their faith in America wholly died in them? Could my faith be killed as theirs had been? Gasping from running, Yetta Solomon flung her arms around me. “You golden heart! I sneaked myself out from the shop--only to tell you I’ll come to see you to-night. I’d give the blood from under my nails for you--only I got to run back--I got to hold my job--my mother--” I hardly saw or heard her--my senses stunned with my defeat. I walked on in a blind daze--feeling that any moment I would drop in the middle of the street from sheer exhaustion. Every hope I had clung to--every human stay--every reality was torn from under me. I sank in bottomless blackness. I had only one wish left--to die. Was it then only a dream--a mirage of the hungry-hearted people in the desert lands of oppression--this age-old faith in America--the beloved, the prayed-for “golden country”? Had the starved villagers of Sukovoly lifted above their sorrows a mere rainbow vision that led them--where--where? To the stifling submission of the sweatshop or the desperation of the streets! “O God! What is there beyond this hell?” my soul cried in me. “Why can’t I make a quick end to myself?” A thousand voices within me and about me answered: