‘When I told you to-day that I loved you,’ he said, ‘I ought to have
told you that I am very poor.’
‘I know it,’ she said.
‘But I am poorer even than you know. I am not in Mr. Quinn’s employment
any more. I have no settled income, and only a prospect of earning a
very small one.’ He paused. ‘I shall have to go away from Ballymoy. I
must live in Dublin. I do not think it is fair to ask you to marry me. I
shall have no more to live upon than----’
She moved a step nearer to him and laid her hand on his arm.
‘Look at me,’ she said.
He raised his eyes to her face, and saw again there, as he had seen in
church, the wonderful shining of love, which is stronger than all things
and holds poverty and hardship cheap.
‘Keep looking at me still,’ she said. ‘Now tell me: Do you really think
it matters that you are poor? Do you think I care whether you have much
or little? Tell me.’
He could not answer her, although he knew that there was only one answer
to her question.
‘Do you think that I love money? Do you doubt that I love you?’
Her voice sunk almost to a whisper as she spoke, and her eyes fell from
looking into his. Just as when he kissed her in the church, she flushed
suddenly, but this time she did not try to escape from him. Instead she
clung to his arm, and hid her face against his shoulder. He put his arms
round her and held her close.
‘I know,’ he said. ‘I was a fool to come here thinking that my being
poor would matter. I might have known. Indeed, I think I did know even
before I spoke to you.’
She had no answer except a long soft laugh, which was half smothered in
his arms.
CHAPTER XX
On Saturday evenings and Sunday afternoons Canon Beecher enjoyed the
privilege of a fire in his study. He was supposed to be engaged at these
seasons in the preparation of his sermons, a serious and exacting work
which demanded solitude and profound quiet. In earlier years he really
had prepared his sermons painfully, but long practice brings to the
preacher a certain fatal facility. Old ideas are not improved by being
clothed in new phrases, and of new ideas--a new idea will occasionally
obtrude itself even on the Christian preacher--the Canon was exceedingly
mistrustful. The study was an unexciting and comparatively comfortable
room. The firelight on winter afternoons played pleasantly on the
dim gold backs of the works of St. Augustine, a fine folio edition
bequeathed to Mrs. Beecher by a scholarly uncle, which reposed
undisturbed along a lower shelf. Adventurous rays occasionally explored
a faded print of the Good Shepherd which hung above the books, and
gleamed upon the handle of the safe where the parish registers and
church plate were stored. The quiet and the process of digesting his
mid-day dinner frequently tempted the Canon to indulge in a series of
pleasant naps on Sunday afternoons.
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