Such was the scene, which Paul Flemming beheldfrom his window a few
mornings after Berkley's departure. The quiet of the place had soothed
him. He had become more calm. His heart complained less loudly in the
holy village silence, as we are wont to lower our voices when those
around us speak in whispers. He began to feel at times an interest in
the lowly things around him. The face of the landscape pleased him, but
more than this the face of the poor woman who sat knitting in the
shade. It was a pale, meek countenance, with more delicacy in its
features than is usual among peasantry. It wore also an expression of
patient suffering. As he was looking at her, a deformed child came out
of the door and hung upon her knees. She caressed him affectionately.
It was her child; in whom she beheld her own fair features distorted
and hardly to be recognised, as one sometimes sees his face reflected
from the bowl of a spoon.
The child's deformity and the mother's tenderness interested the
feelings of Flemming. The landlady told him something of the poor
woman's history. She was the widow of a blacksmith, who had died soon
after their marriage. But she survived to become a mother, just as, in
oaks, immediately after fecundation, the male flower fades and falls,
while the female continues and ripens into perfect fruit. Alas! her
child was deformed. Yet she looked upon him with eyes of maternal
fondness and pity, loving him still more for his deformity. And in her
heart she said, as the Mexicans say to their new-born offspring,
"Child, thou art come into the world to suffer. Endure, and hold thy
peace." Though poor, she was not entirely destitute; for her husband
had left her, beside the deformed child, a life estate in a tomb in the
churchyard of Saint Gilgen. During the week she labored for other
people, and on Sundays for herself, by going to church and reading the
Bible. On one of the blank leaves she had recorded the day of her
birth, and that of her child's, likewise her marriage and her husband's
death. Thus she lived, poor, patient and resigned. Her heart was a
passion-flower, bearing within it the crown of thorns and the cross of
Christ. Her ideas of Heaven were few and simple. She rejected the
doctrine that it was a place of constant activity, and not of repose,
and believed, that, when she at length reached it, she should work no
more, but sit always in a clean white apron, and sing psalms.
As Flemming sat meditating on these things, he paid new homage in his
heart to the beauty and excellence of the female character. He thought
of the absent and the dead; and said, with tears in his eyes;
"Shall I thank God for the green Summer, and the mild air, and the
flowers, and the stars, and all that makes this world so beautiful, and
not for the good and beautiful beings I have known in it? Has not their
presence been sweeter to me than flowers? Are they not higher and
holier than the stars? Are they not more to me than all things else?"
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