"How sorrowful and sublime is the face of that statue yonder," said
Flemming. "It reminds me of the old Danish hero Beowulf; for careful,
sorrowing, he seeth in his son's bower the wine-hall deserted, the
resort of the wind, noiseless; the knight sleepeth; the warrior lieth
in darkness; there is no noise of the harp, no joy in the dwellings, as
there was before."
"Even as you say," replied the Baron; "but it often astonishes me,
that, coming from that fresh green world of yours beyond the sea, you
should feel so much interest in these old things; nay, at times, seem
so to have drunk in their spirit, as really to live in the times of
old. For my part, I do not see what charm there is in the pale and
wrinkled countenance of the Past, so to entice the soul of a young man.
It seems to me like falling in love with one's grandmother. Give me the
Present;--warm, glowing, palpitating with life. She is my mistress; and
the Future stands waiting like my wife that is to be, for whom, to tell
the truth, I care very little just now. Indeed, my friend, I wish you
would take more heed of this philosophy of mine; and not waste the
golden hours of youth in vain regrets for the past, and indefinite, dim
longings for the future. Youth comes but once in a lifetime."
"Therefore," said Flemming; "let us so enjoy it as to be still young
when we are old. For my part, I grow happier as I grow older. When I
compare my sensations and enjoyments now, with what they were ten years
ago, the comparison is vastly in favor of the present. Much of the
fever and fretfulness of life is over. The world and I look each other
more calmly in the face. My mind is more self-possessed. It has done me
good to be somewhat parched by the heat and drenched by the rain of
life."
"Now you speak like an old philosopher," answered the Baron, laughing.
"But you deceive yourself. I never knew a more restless, feverishspirit
than yours. Do not think you have gained the mastery yet. You are only
riding at anchor here in an eddy of the stream; you will soon be swept
away again in the mighty current and whirl of accident. Do not trust
this momentary calm. I know you better than you know yourself. There is
something Faust-like in you; you would fain grasp the highest and the
deepest; and `reel from desire to enjoyment, and in enjoyment languish
for desire.' When a momentary change of feeling comes over you, you
think the change permanent, and thus live in constant self-deception."
"I confess," said Flemming, "there may be some truth in what you say.
There are times when my soul is restless; and a voice sounds within me,
like the trump of the archangel, and thoughts that were buried, long
ago, come out of their graves. At such times my favorite occupations
and pursuits no longer charm me. The quiet face of Nature seems to mock
me."
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