Lesbians -- Fiction; Love stories; New York (N.Y.) -- Fiction
“And Marcie.” Laura didn’t know why she said it. She knew how badly it
would hurt. But she was high, the go-to-hell feeling was still with her
from the morning. It was either hurt or be hurt; sarcasm or tears. She
looked up slowly at Beebo. At her blue eyes and her lips turned down,
with an unaccustomed trace of lipstick on them. Laura wanted to hurt
her. She couldn’t stop herself. She turned on her stool to face her.
“You’re ridiculous,” she said. “You’re a little girl trying to be a
little boy. And you run an elevator for the privilege. Grow up, Beebo.
You’ll never be a little boy. Or a big boy. You just haven’t got what it
takes. Not all the elevators in the world can make a boy of you. You can
wear pants till you’re blue in the face and it won’t change what’s
underneath.”
Beebo just stared at her, her face suddenly pale and frowning, in
silence. Then she turned, leaving her cigarette still lighted in a tray
on the bar, and left them without saying a word to either.
Laura and Jack sat in silence for a while after she had gone, watching
her cigarette burn itself out. Finally Jack said, “If Terry had done
that to me, Laura, I’d have strangled him.”
Laura put her head down on the bar and cried.
* * * * *
The weekend was a stalemate for Laura and Marcie. Laura was so deeply
involved in her conflicts that it was impossible to talk about them. In
two weeks Jean would be back. In a day her father would be gone. Burr
would start hounding Marcie, and Laura still didn’t know why Marcie had
let him think they were lovers. And Beebo ... Beebo ... that hurt the
worst, somehow. It was so needless, so brutal. The kind of thing Merrill
Landon had done to her when he was in a temper. Just to blow off steam,
to dissipate the mood. Only he went even farther. He would shout and
call her names, slap her, call down the wrath of his dead wife and son
on her head.
Marcie couldn’t get through to Laura, hard as she tried. She, too, began
to get moody. She launched into long self-reproaching speeches which
tortured Laura until she begged her to stop.
On Monday Laura went to the bank before she went to the office and
withdrew one hundred and ninety-two dollars. She was going to leave
herself twenty, just in case, but she left herself five instead. She had
a little at home. She could get along until the end of the week. The
rent wasn’t due and there was food in the house.
Jack came by at five and picked it up. “Come out for dinner with me,” he
said. “I seem to have come into a little money.”
“No, thanks.”
“My treat,” he said, directing his sarcasm at himself and waggling her
dollars at her.
Laura smiled faintly. “Take it,” she said. “I can’t talk to anybody
tonight.”
“How’s Marcie?”
“Brooding. I get on her nerves, I guess.”
“That’s only fair. She’s made a mess of yours. How’s Burr?”
“He called her. They talked for a few minutes. He asked her to see him.”
“Will she?”
“No.”
“Not yet, hm?”
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