Lesbians -- Fiction; Love stories; New York (N.Y.) -- Fiction
“I never knew you could swear, either,” he said. “Especially at me. As a
matter of fact, I doubt whether you can, now that we’re face to face.”
It was a dare. Laura, stung, felt a flush of resistance come up in her.
“If I do,” she said, “you’ll beat me. That’s your answer to everything.”
“It always worked before,” he said, mocking her.
“It worked so well that it drove me out of your house forever. It made
me hate you, Father.”
“You don’t need to spell it for me, Laura. I get the idea.”
She hated his sarcasm! Her hatred flowed in her now and revived her
spirit. “Is that what you wanted? To make me hate you?” she asked.
“Because you’ve done a fine job. A masterful job.”
“Thanks. I’m glad we agree on one thing anyway.” He stood immovable,
still smiling slightly.
_He wants to drive me frantic. He wants me to end up on my knees,
incoherent. Kissing his feet. God damn him! He doesn’t care what he says
as long as it’ll drive me wild._
“I must say, you took a prosaic way out, Laura. Running away is no way
to solve a problem. Running away to New York is the classic cliché.
There are a lot of you here in New York, you know. Silly little girls
who left one set of problems at home for another set in the big city.”
Laura turned her back on him. _I won’t even answer him. If I could just
hurt him somehow. Hurt him like he hurts me. What would hurt him the
worst? Mother. My Mother._
“Did you slap my mother around the way you do me?” she asked him
abruptly.
At this his smile faded and his face grew very hard. “Your mother never
deserved it,” he said.
“Neither did I,” she retorted. “As far as I can see.”
“You are notoriously shortsighted, my darling daughter.”
“And you, Father, are blind.” Her face flushed.
Again he smiled, but his smile frightened her. “What have you been
doing, Laura, that gives you such intestinal fortitude in the face of
such obvious physical risk?”
She wanted to scream at him, “I hate you! I hate your God-damn
sophisticated sarcasm!” But she only said tersely, “I have a job. I have
some nice friends. I have money in the bank. I have a life of my own
without you. I have a little confidence I never had before.” They were
all lies, that started out so beautifully true. Almost all lies, anyway.
But she had flung them in his face, and now he was not sure. He studied
her. “Those are the problems I came to face in New York, Father. Nothing
could ever persuade me to trade them for the ones at home.” _If I didn’t
hate him so much I couldn’t do it. He started out wrong, trying to drive
me in a corner. He gave me a chance without realizing it._
He moved away from the wall then, his face registering contemptuous
amusement. He lighted a cigarette, and, to her astonishment, offered her
one. She shook her head. “Well,” he observed. “You apparently haven’t
taken up all the vices yet.” He turned away from her and walked about
the room, firing questions at her. “What kind of job do you have?”
“Medical secretary.”
“Where?”
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