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"Oh, Bob Thorpe's girl come drivin' her automobile along fit to ram
straight through kingdom come, an' don't turn out till she gets so
close I thought we was done for; to be sure, I did. Peter, here, took a
jump an' busted a tug." He looked keenly at VB. "Funny!" he remarked.
"She didn't see me, I know. An' she looked as if she'd been cryin'!"
He could not know the added torture those words carried to the heart of
the young fellow battling there silently, covering up his agony, trying
to appear at ease.
For the thirst had returned with manifold force, augmenting those other
agonies which racked him. All former ordeals were forgotten before the
fury of this assault. By the need of stimulant he was subjected to
every fiendish whim of singing nerves; from knowing that in him was a
love which must be killed to save a woman from sacrifice arose a
torment that reached into his very vitals.
The glands of his mouth stopped functioning, and it seemed as though
only one thing would take the cursed dryness from his tongue and lips.
His fingers would not be still; they kept plucking and reaching out for
that hidden chord which would draw him back to himself, or on down into
the depths--somehow, he did not care which. Anything to be out of that
killing uncertainty!
As he had gained in strength during those months, so it now seemed had
the thirst grown. It battered down his spirit, whipped it to a pulp,
and dragged it through the sloughs of doubt and despair. His will--did
he have a will? He did not know; nor did he seem to care.
It had come--the slipping backward. He had battled well, but now he
could feel himself going, little by little, weakening, fighting
outwardly but at heart knowing the futility of it all. And going
because of Gail Thorpe! "I can't put this mark on her!" he moaned
against the Captain's neck. "She said it--that even those we love must
bear the mark. And she said it was all good. She was wrong, wrong! Such
a thing can't be good!
"Suppose I did keep above it, was sure of myself for a time in a sham
way, wouldn't it only be running the risk of a greater disaster?
Wouldn't it surely come some time? Wouldn't it, if--
"And then it would kill her, too!"
He hammered the Captain's shoulder with his clenched fist and the great
stallion snuggled his cheek closer to the man, trying to understand,
trying to comfort.
Then would come moments when his will rallied and Young VB fought with
the ferocity of a jungle cat, walking back and forth across the corral,
talking to the Captain, condemning his weaker self, gesticulating,
promising. At those times he doubted whether it was so much the actual
thirst that tore him as it was wondering if he could be worthy of her.
Then the old desire would come again, in an engulfing wave, and his
fighting would become empty words.
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