London (England) -- Fiction; Satire; Suffragists -- Fiction
The gardener was not a religious young man. He was not quite rare enough
in texture for that, and he was a little too clever for the religion of
his fathers. The Christian pose had never appealed to him, it was not
unique enough. All his life he had seen prayer used as a method of
commercial telegraphy. You wanted a thing, and from a kneeling position
you informed Heaven of your order. If it was complied with, you knew
that you must be appreciated in high quarters; if it was ignored, you
supposed that your message had miscarried, and despatched another. At
any rate it cost nothing.
But the gardener had a vague reverence inborn in him. During his
everyday life he posed as an unbeliever. When in his own unposing
company he passively believed in something he had never defined. But
under stained-glass windows or the benediction of music, under arched
forests and a sinless sky, under the passionate sane spell of the sea,
under the charm of love, he knew that he worshipped. For he was a poet
without the means of proving it, and to such God is a secret mouthpiece,
and a salvation.
So, at the back of the church, beside the suffragette, he pressed his
face into his hands, and his elbows on to his knees, and found to his
surprise that his heart was beating violently. Between his fingers he
could see the east window. Its blood-like splashes of red, its banners
of unearthly blue, its blur of golden haloes glorified the sunlight. It
seemed to have a colour for each of his days; he found his childhood in
it, and his little ambitions, his pale Tra-la-la days, and the babyhood
of his heart, red hair he found, and the ardour of the sea, and love....
And presently he looked round and found his companion had gone from his
side.
He could see her, with her chin up, looking defiantly at the altar. The
sunlight dramatically touched her distant face, and it was like a
pin-prick in the twilight of the church. It was but seldom that nature
provided a good setting for my suffragette.
It was only when he saw her with the mustard-coloured portmanteau raised
shoulder high that he realised what she was doing. The knowledge tore a
gash across his dreams, and severed him from himself. He did not move.
He watched her throw the portmanteau at the foot of the chancel screen.
He saw her wrap her arms about her face and swing round on her heel. He
hardly heard the explosion, but directly afterwards he realised how loud
it had been.
Smoke danced across the altar, smoke blotted out the window, smoke
threaded the lace of the shattered screen. Smoke.... Silver in the
sunlight ... blue round the altar ... and grey—dead grey—over the little
crumpled body of the criminal. Smoke stood over her, a transitory
monument—like a tree—like a curse.
Yes, I pose of course. But the question is—how deep may a pose extend?
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