Marjorie was a perfectly intelligent girl. She knew very well that
Pennington was, at last, telling her the outlines of his own pitiful
story. And he was leaving the decision in her hands.
She sat quietly for awhile, and tried to think. It was hard to think,
because there was a queer, hazy feeling in her head, and her hands were
hot. She had felt unusually excited and energetic and gay earlier in
the day, but that was all gone, and only the hazy feeling left. She
did not want to move, or, particularly, to speak. She wondered if a
trip she had made that afternoon before to a little swampy place, where
she had sat and strung berries for an hour, had been bad for her.
But there was Pennington--he looked very large, suddenly, and then
seemed to fade away far off for a minute, and have to be focused with
an effort--and he had to be answered.
"I think," she said hesitatingly, "that he ought to do what seemed to
him right, without thinking of his feelings, or--or any one else's."
"But that's just the trouble. He couldn't see which _was_ right."
Marjorie tried to focus harder than ever. She wanted to be unselfish,
and tell him the thing that was right to do, at any cost--though she
had not realized how much Pennington's help and society had been to
her. She felt a terror at the idea of his going, the more because she
felt ill. But that didn't count--that mustn't count. You have no
right to let a man stay where he may fall in love with you, merely
because you need him for a maiden aunt or something of the sort. And
that was the ultimate and entire extent of her affection for him,
strong though it had come to be.
"I think--I think that man had better go back to the place where he had
really belonged at first," she said in a low voice. "No matter how
much the girl missed him, or needed him, she had no right to want him
to be hurt by staying near her."
"You really think that?" he said.
"Yes," she answered. And then incoherently, "Oh, Mr. Pennington, I do
want to be good!"
She meant that she had done enough wrong, in acting as she had toward
Francis in the first place. She felt now, very strongly, that all the
trouble had come from her cowardice when Francis came home. She should
have shut her teeth and gone through the thing, no matter what her
personal feelings had been at first. It would all have come out right
then. She knew now that she and Francis, the plunge once taken, could
have stood each other. And she would have kept her faith. She had
learned the meaning of honor.
"You are good," said Pennington in a moved tone. "Then--I have my
answer. Yes--I'll go back."
She leaned her heavy head on the chair-back again. He seemed once more
suddenly remote.
"I--I wish you weren't going," she said, only half conscious of what
she said.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Elsewhere in the archive
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account