But it was a relief to my mind to know that Lorrimer was not unworthy.
He was a distinguished man then, and I felt sure that he would become
still more distinguished eventually. He was not one of the many who
come and go, and are forgotten; but one of those destined to live for
ever
In minds made better by their presence.
The good in his nature was certainly as far above the average as were
his splendid abilities, and Ideala was right when she declared that she
could answer for his principles. It is impulse that is beyond
calculation, and for his own or another's impulses no wise man will
answer.
Ideala continued to droop.
"She will never get over it;" I said to Claudia one day, when we were
alone together.
"Indeed she will," Claudia answered, confidently. "Out of the depth of
your profound ignorance of natural history do you speak, my brother. I
dread the reaction, though. When it comes she will be overwhelmed with
shame; but it will come. All this is only a phase. She is in a state of
transition now. It is her pride that makes her nurse her grief, and
will not let her give him up. She cannot bear to think that she, of all
women in the world, should have been the victim of anything so trivial
as a passing fancy. Not that it would have been a passing fancy if they
had not been separated; but as it is--why, no fire can burn without
fuel."
Claudia had evidently changed her mind, and she might be right; but my
own fear was that her first impression would be justified, and that
Ideala would never be able to take a healthy interest in anything
again.
"I cannot care," was her constant complaint. "Nothing ever touches me
either painfully or pleasurably. Nothing will ever make me glad again."
She said this one evening when she was sitting alone with Claudia and
myself, and there was a long silence after she had finished speaking,
during which she sat in a dejected attitude, her face buried in her
hands.
All at once she looked up.
"It is very strange," she said, "but half that feeling seems to have
gone with the expression of it."
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