"What are you?" she asked, her voice sunk to almost a whisper.
"Hiero?--are you Hiero?"
Balder stared confounded,--partly inclined to smile!
"Come back,--transfigured!" she went on, her eyes deepening with awe.
What did it mean? Somewhat disturbed, Balder got also on his feet. As
he did so, Gnulemah crouched before him, holding out her hands like a
suppliant. An on-looker might have fancied that the would-be God had
found his worshipper at last!
"My name is Balder," his Deityship managed to say. As he spoke, the
sun rounded the corner of the house, and the light fell brightly on
him, Gnulemah kneeling in shadow. The glory of his splendid youth
seemed to have shone out from within him in sudden effulgence.
"Balder!" she slowly repeated, still gazing up at him.
"There is a relationship between us," said he, a vague uneasiness
urging him to take refuge behind the quaint fantasy, "You are the
daughter of fire, and I the descendant of the sun!"
He spoke the unpremeditated notion which the sunburst had created in
his brain,--spoke not seriously nor yet lightly. He had as much right
to his genealogy as she to hers.
But what a strange effect his words wrought on her! She clasped her
hands together quickly in a kind of ecstasy.
"The sun,--Balder! I have prayed to him,--he as come to me,--Balder,
my God!" With how divine an accent did her full low voice give him the
name to which he had dared aspire! He was God--and her God!
He perhaps divined one part of the process through which her mind must
have gone; but he could not find a word to answer, whether of
acceptance or disclaimer. He turned pale,--his heart sick. Had the
recognition of his Godhood been too tardy? Gnulemah fancied he
repulsed her, and her passion kindled,--only religious passion, but it
seared him!
"Do not be cold to me, Balder!"--his name as she uttered it moved him
as a blasphemy. "In my lonely kneelings I have felt you! my eyes
close, my hands grow together, my breath flutters, every breath is joy
and fear! I think 'He is with me,--the Being I adore!' but when I
opened my eyes, He was gone,--Balder!"
Still motionless and seeming-deaf stood the Divinity, bathed in
mocking sunlight. He was powerless to stop her from unveiling to him,
as to a visible God the sacred places of her maiden heart. That
sublime office whose reversion he had boldly courted, in the
possession shrivelled his soul to nothing and left him dead. It was
not easy to be God,--even over one human being!
But Gnulemah, in her mighty earnestness, knelt nearer, so that the
edge of Balder's sunlight smote the golden ornaments that clung round
her outstretched arms. She almost touched him, but though his spirit
recoiled, the doltish flesh would not be moved.
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