“Then Sarah Swallow would have forbidden. Your people must be betrayed
in order to enable you to marry, while, at the same time, you cannot
make up your mind whom to marry. You will persuade yourself, when you
have been married a month, that you have made the wrong choice, after
all. If you would give up your living, and work with your conscience in
some other employment, instead of sporting with it in this, you might
find at last that you had a heart, and that there was some one person
who alone could satisfy it. You might be happy, James, after all.”
“There is no use in that sort of thing now,” urged James. “Sarah is
disposed of, and Mary Lee——”
“Disposed of!” said Fanny, fixing her eyes upon him so that his were
immediately turned away.
“Upon my honour, I had nothing to do with it. It was all their own
doing. It was as much news to me as to anybody when Morse came to ask me
to marry him.”
“I believe you. I acquit you of providing for the prostitution of one
whose innocent heart you had just gained, and found it convenient to
throw away.”
“But the winning and casting off led to the rest,” observed Richard.
“I tell you, she threw herself away. The old man sought her because his
son loved her,—not because I did. But he is a good old fellow; and after
all——”
“Silence!” cried Fanny. “Go on, if you dare, to say that to be the slave
of an ignorant old man,—the household drudge of a being she despises for
marrying her almost as much as she despises herself for marrying him,—
say, if you dare, that this is a good enough lot for one whom you
yourself taught to feel that she had a mind and a heart, to be free in
action, and devoted in affection——”
Her eyes rained tears, and her voice trembled so that she could not go
on to say that with which her heart was overfull. James began to ask
himself whether he had not committed a great mistake in deserting one
for whom Fanny seemed to feel so passionate an affection. In the midst
of her agitation, Fanny saw his misapprehension.
“It is for my sex,—it is for our nature, that I feel it so much,” she
struggled to say. “That no more should be understood of what love is by
those who are acting in the very name of love! That any one should dare
to open only to darken,—to expand only to crush! Anne says, ‘I did say a
great deal, but Sarah is so much cleverer now than I am, that I dare not
say all that was in my mind. She sees how foolish many things are that
we never used to doubt of, and that I do not understand any better now.’
Nothing can be truer. The whole being of the one sister has been
awakened, in order to be tortured; and the other can no longer console.”
To carry off some emotion which could not be helped, James began to
jest. He thought it was only fair,—for the purpose of restoring the
sympathy between the sisters,—that he should flirt a little with Anne.
“Try;” Fanny said; and she spoke no more.
James next made an attempt upon Richard.
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