but for an accident I might have stood by that water, listening to that
song, with Kitty Windus, but the physical convulsion passed, and the
bird sang on.
I had not looked at Evie. I do not think she knew she had drawn a little
closer to me. Other listeners had been attracted by the melody, but we
stood in a shadow, near a rill that fell into the mere. The water was
nacre; the moon's sickle in it was a thin blade of amethyst; and I
thrilled unspeakably as the bird's song changed without warning to long,
low, caressing notes that drew the heart out of me as the nectar-bag of
a floret is drawn from a flower. I heard Evie's slow sob.
Oh, might I but have crushed out that other nectar, to transmute into
honey of our own!
Suddenly Evie flung herself on my breast, sobbing and strangling. Her
fingers worked at the lapel of my collar; by bending my head I could
have touched her small white knuckles with my lips. I was conscious that
in my efforts not to do this I bared my teeth like a dog, but I
remembered in time that to snatch was to lose. It was not my bosom
against which her bosom heaved--it was the nearest sentient
resting-place on which she could lay it. Her unhappiness and her
happiness, her dream and her disillusion, her knowledge and her already
failing hopes, rushed together in her sobs. Her love of a wastrel and
her love for all he was a wastrel, and that hidden and sacred nook from
which Louie Causton had ruthlessly ripped the curtain--for the pure
strangeness of these things her tears gushed forth. I felt the long
heave of her body.
"Come, come, my dear!" I said, with an infinitude of tender
encouragement, close to her ear.
"Oh--oh--oh!" she sobbed.
"Dear, dear girl!" I murmured, passing my arm about her to support her.
But at that moment I could no more have said or done more than this than
I could have sued for a favour by the bier of a scarce-cold lover.
"Hush, poor child!" I whispered, patting her shoulder. "Come, let's go.
Let's leave that dreadful bird."
"Just a--mi--mi--minute----" she quavered. "I--I--love it--and I can't
bear it----"
Even so did I love, and yet could scarce bear to hold the tender form in
my arms.
Presently we left the mere, mounted the dark lane, and began to cross
the common. Her hand was now on my sleeve, and it did not leave it
again. Once her fingers made an impulsive little pressure on it, which,
I cried sternly to my heart, I must not regard. But God knows the war
there was between the sweetness of it and my fortitude.
"Jeff," she said more quietly by-and-by, using that name for the first
time. "I--I couldn't have borne it if it hadn't been for you. It was
too--too----"
"Never mind, dear," I soothed her. "Let's walk a little more
quickly--your aunt will be wondering what's become of you----"
She laughed tremulously. "Kitty will be wondering what's become of
_you_," she said. Then she added timidly, "She's a lucky girl!"
"Oh? Why?" I asked.
"You're so--so----"
But she did not say what.
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