For three weeks I trudged the streets looking for work; and then a bit
of luck befell me. The new "professor" at the college broke down under
the heat; it was not desired to give up the Friday evening
advertisement-writing class; and I daresay my anomalous standing at the
place, something between student and pathetic high-and-dry
"institution," was the cause of its being offered to me. I got five
shillings for the evening, and that five shillings kept me for five
days. I discovered that I need not pay my rent. The first week I missed
doing this I made a shamefaced apology to my landlord, the publican,
and discovered that he was not a bad sort. It was too hot to worry about
trifles, he said, and so set himself a precedent that cost him pretty
dearly until, long afterwards, I saw to it that he was not the loser for
having harboured me during that time.
Wherever I sought work my inability to produce a character damned me;
and on the other hand I was not a Discharged Prisoner. Two or three
times I was taken on casually, once as a packer at a large furniture
emporium, once at a stocktaking for bankruptcy purposes, and once (I
forget how I tumbled into this) I spent a whole day locked in an upper
room of a town hall, counting the voting-papers in some borough or
vestry election--a lucrative ten-shilling job. This was before I got,
and retained for some weeks (until I had the Corps of Commissionaires
down on me), the post of hall porter at the offices of a sporting paper.
I will tell you about that presently. You will see that I am making all
the haste I can to have done with this horrible time.
Among other things, the general deterioration in my appearance had
forced me to tell Kitty Windus that I was out of work. But I had made
light of it, saying that, on the whole, it was rather a good thing, as I
needed some sort of a spur; but I daresay Alf and Frank had said the
same thing many a time. Presently my former boastings, about the great
things I was shortly going to do, had committed me to the lie that I
had at last found employment. It was my week's stocktaking that I told
this particular lie about, and Kitty never knew when that temporary job
came to an end. Nor, poor girl, did I tell her what she had done when
she had forwarded that letter to Rixon Tebb & Masters'. It would become
me ill to say that she stuck to me because it was myself or nothing for
her; already I had begun to dread that it would be no easy matter to get
rid of her when I might find it necessary to do so: and many a time, as
my despair grew upon me, sweeping all personal reluctances and physical
repugnances aside, I threw pride to the winds, and ate, in her
sitting-room in Percy Street, the only food I had tasted during the
day--becoming an Alf or a Frank in very fact.
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