China -- History -- Revolution, 1911-1912 -- Fiction; Love stories; River boats -- Fiction; Yangtze River (China) -- Fiction
It was later, when the child had run off to play among the flowers, that
he and she fell to talking as they had not talked during these recent
crowded days. There were silences, at first. Despite his effort to seem
merely friendly and kind, he felt a restraint that had to be fought
through. In this time, so difficult for her at every point, he felt
deeply that he must not fail her. Her greatest need, surely, was for
friendship. The excited youth who dogged her steps and hung on her most
trivial glance could not offer that. And melancholy had touched her
bright spirit; he sensitively felt that when the little princess
ran away and her smile faded. Sorrow dwelt not far behind those dark
thoughtful eyes.
Early in the conversation she spoke of her father. Her thoughts,
clearly, were always with him.
“I wan' to ask you,” said she simply and gravely, “if you know what he
is doing.”
Doane moved his head in the negative.
“He has been in his room for more than a day. When I go to his door
he is kin' but he doesn' ask me to come in. And he doesn' tell me
anything.”
“He is not confiding in me,” said Doane.
“I don' like that, either, Mis'er Doane. For I know he thinks of you now
as his closes' frien'. There is no other frien' who knows what you know.
An' you have save' his life an' mine. My father is not a man to fail in
frien'ship or in gratitu'.”
Doane's eyes, despite his nearly successful inner struggles, grew misty
again. Impulsively he took her hand gently in his. At once, simply, her
slender fingers closed about his own. It seemed not unlike the trusting
affection of a child; he sensed this as a new pain. Yet there was strong
emotional quality in her; he felt it in her dark beauty, in the curve of
her cheek and the lustrous troubled splendor in her eyes, in the slender
curves of her strong young body. She was, after all, a woman grown;
aroused, doubtless, to the puzzling facts of life; a woman, with an
ardent lover close at hand, who was--this as his wholly adult mind now
saw her--already at her mating time. And feeling this he gripped her
hand more tightly than he knew. But even so, he was not unaware of his
own danger. It wouldn't do; once to release his own tightly chained
emotions would be to render himself of no greater value to her in her
bewilderment than any merely pursuing male. He set his teeth on that
thought, and abruptly withdrew his hand.
She did not look up--her gaze was fixed on the surface of the river.
The only indication she gave that she was so much as aware of this odd
little act of his was that she started to speak, then paused for a brief
instant before going on.
“I ask--ask myself all the time if there is anything we coul' be doing.”
Doane's head moved again in the negative.
“If not even his gratitu'--”
“Gratitude,” said Doane gently, “becomes less than nothing when it is
demanded.”
“True, it can no' be ask', but it can be given.”
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