"When must you go to see your cousin?" she asked.
"Very shortly," said Grete. "Aenchen Baumer goes to a convent in
Freiburg, where she will learn English, and fine needlework, and many
things. She is a good friend of mine, and a companion once; and I want
to see her before she goes."
"If you wait a few days, we shall go to the Feldberg together."
Grete clasped her hands with delight.
"And will madame, your mamma, go also?" she asked, rejoiced to think she
had not the journey to make alone.
"Yes; but the lady is not my mamma, Grete. _She_ died when I was
scarcely your age; and this is my second mother, who has been with me
ever since."
All the next day she waited, lingering about, and unable to do anything
in her feverish anxiety and impatience. She was not afraid to see him.
She had suddenly been awakened to a sweet and new consciousness of
strength—a fulness of life and will which she knew would sustain her in
any emergency. She had no fear whatever, so far as she herself was
concerned. But she dreaded the possible effect of their meeting again
in these too seductive circumstances; she dreaded it, while she thought
of Dove. Already there lay over her the shadow of the wrong done to the
bright young English girl whose pretty ways and violet eyes she so well
remembered—a wrong inscrutable, not to be condoned or forgotten. Whose
was the fault? She only knew that she dared no longer stay there after
having once read Will’s secret in that quick mutual glance in the
forest.
Another day passed, and yet another: the torment was becoming
unbearable. She could not leave the place while danger yet hung over
him: on the other hand, her delay was provoking the chances of that very
meeting which she had resolved should not take place. Many a time she
thought she could go away happy and content if only she might shake
hands with him and look once in his eyes; then there came a misty
remembrance of Dove’s face floating before her, and the young girl
seemed to regard her reproachfully.
She began to think that a little far-off glimpse of him would do:
moderating her desires, she grew to long for that as the one supreme
boon, bearing which with her she could go away with a glad heart. Only
a glimpse of him to see how he looked, to bid a mute farewell to him,
herself unseen.
"Our patient is much better this morning," said the Count to her, on the
fourth day. "Won’t you come upstairs, and see him?"
"No," she said, softly, looking down.
She was more incomprehensible to him than ever. Formerly she seemed to
be quite familiar with him; she was happy and careless in his presence;
she responded to his nonsense with nonsense of her own. Now she seemed
to have been translated to another sphere. He was no longer jovial and
jocular with her. He watched and studied the Madonna-like calm of the
clear dark face, until he felt a sort of awe stealing over him; the
intense dark life of her eyes was a mystery to him.
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