He paused there for a moment, uncertain whether to turn or venture on,
when a figure came out of the shop which—without his recognising either
the dress or the face—startled him, and made him involuntarily withdraw
a step. It was the form, perhaps, or the motion, that told him who it
was; at all events he knew that she herself was there, within a few
yards of him. He did not know what to do. There was a vague desire in
his heart to throw to the wind all considerations—his promise, his duty
to one very dear to him; but he only looked apprehensively at her. It
was all over in a second, in half a second. She caught sight of him,
shrank back a little, uncertain, trembling, and then appeared as if she
were about to pass on. But the great yearning in both their hearts
suddenly became master of the situation; for, at the same moment,
apparently moved by the same impulse, they advanced to each other, he
caught her hands in his, and there was between them only one intense
look of supreme and unutterable joy.
Such a look it is given to most men to receive once or twice—seldom
oftener—in their lives. It is never to be forgotten. When a strong
revulsion of feeling, from despondency and despair to the keen delight
of meeting again, draws away from a girl’s eyes that coy veil of maiden
bashfulness that generally half-shrouds their light, when the spirit
shines full and frank there, no disguise being longer possible, and it
seems as if the beautiful eyes had speech in them—but how is it possible
to describe such a moment in cold and brittle words? The remembrance of
one such meeting colours a man’s life. You know that when you have lain
and dreamed of enjoying companionship with one hopelessly separated from
you—of seeing glad eyes you can never see again, and hearing sweet talk
that you can never again hear—you rise with a confused sense of
happiness, as if the morning air were full of tender thrills; you still
hear the voice, and you seem to be walking by the side of the sea, and
there is sunshine and the sound of waves abroad. That dizzy
remembrance, in itself a perplexing, despairing joy, is something like
the thought of such a moment and such a look as that I speak of, when
one glances backward, after long years, and wonders how near heaven
earth has been.
When she went towards him, and looked up into his face, and when they
walked away together, there was no thought of speech between them.
Silence being so full of an indescribable joy, why should they break it?
It was enough that they were near each other—that, for the present,
there was no wide and mournful space between them, full of dim longings
and bitter regrets. To-morrow was afar off, and did not concern them.
"Did you come to see me?" she said at last, very timidly.
"No."
Another interval of supreme silence, and then he said—
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