coals in poor men’s grates into lumps of gleaming rubies, and diamonds,
and emeralds. She would conceal her mysterious power; and lo! the
invisible will would go forth, and this or that unhappy man or
woman—ready to sink in despair before the crushing powers of
circumstance—would suddenly receive her kindly help, and find himself or
herself enriched and made comfortable by an unknown agency.
Like every one who has suffered the trials of poverty, she fancied that
nearly all the ills of life were attributable to want of money, and she
saw in this wealth which had become hers a magnificent instrument of
amelioration. She had a very confused notion of Mr. Cayley’s figures.
She knew the value of five pounds, or twenty, or even a hundred; but
when it came to thousands, comprehension failed her. She could not tell
the difference between a hundred and fifty thousand pounds and the same
sum per annum; both quantities were not reducible to the imagination,
and consequently conveyed no distinct impression. She knew vaguely that
the money at her command was inexhaustible; she could give each of her
friends—certainly she had not many—a fortune without affecting (sensibly
to herself) this accumulation of banker’s ciphers.
So she walked westward through the crowded city, weaving dreams. Habit
had so taught her to dread the expense of a cab, that she never thought
of employing a conveyance, although she had in her pocket fifty pounds
which Mr. Cayley had pressed upon her. She was unaware of the people,
the noise, the cold January wind, and the dust. Her heart was sick with
the delight of these vague imaginings, and the inexpressible joy of her
anticipations was proof against those physical inconveniences which,
indeed, she never perceived.
Yet her joy was troubled. For among all the figures that her heart
loved to dwell upon,—all the persons whom she pictured as receiving her
munificent and secret kindness—there was one with whom she knew not how
to deal. What should she give to Will Anerley? The whole love of her
heart he already possessed; could she, even though he were to know
nothing of the donor, offer him money? She shrank from such a suggestion
with apprehensive dislike and repugnance; but yet her love for him
seemed to ask for something, and that something was not money.
"What can I do better than make him marry Dove, and forget me?" she said
to herself; and she was aware of a pang at her heart which all Harry
Ormond’s money, and twenty times that, could not have removed.
For a little while the light died away from her face; but by-and-by the
old cheerful resolute spirit returned, and she continued her brisk walk
through the grey and busy streets.
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