The Boss and the Madam met us in Baltimore, and brought us to this
heavenly place. My room is downstairs, with windows on three sides, and
wide doors opening on a quiet end of the wide piazza, which nearly
encircles the house. I can be wheeled there, straight from the bed, to a
couch-like hammock, where a cranky back may be as comfortable as its own
bad temper will allow; and my bed is under a long row of windows, just
as it is at home. I can look out across the small plateau, occupied by
the cottage grounds, to mountains, near and far, and to the glory of the
sunset skies. And again, from the porch, on mountains, and slopes where
the summer cottagers have set their beautiful homes.
I was ashamed to come here in this battered condition; when the Madam
wrote for us I expected to be walking all about by the time I came. But
they would have me, and the Peon and Caro were of the same mind. For
myself, I can scarcely imagine a lovelier place to get well in; the
loving-kindness indoors is as fine a tonic as the mountain air outside.
I have not seen any of the Peon’s family in all these years of my
invalidism, but I find them in spirit just where I left them—and in
body, too, for that matter; for health and love and happiness are a
combination to defy time, and the heads of the household are still a
bridal pair. Their youthful names for one another, long since adopted by
the rest of us, suit their sunny middle-age as well as ever; so the
“Boss” and the “Madam” they remain.
One of the daughters is married, and will make but a brief visit this
summer. The other, known as Hazel-eyes, is the light of the big house; a
quiet little body, wonderfully pretty, her mother’s shadow and her
father’s adorer.
The Peon stayed only a couple of days, and went back to our empty nest.
He is to go West before long, and will come here on his return to tell
me all about David.
Caro is restless and unusually silent, not doing herself justice among
strangers. The child has been severely taxed in the last few weeks, and
shows it plainly. The roses are all gone, and her eyes are tired and
sad. She seems like a new Caro whom I must learn to know. I know I was
ill for awhile, though not as ill as they thought; and she never saw me
suffer that way before. But it isn’t that which clouds her bright
eyes—it can’t be, no matter what she says, now that I am past the worst
of it. I wonder will she ever open her heart to me about David. She used
to tell me everything. I always said the test of my success in mothering
her would come with her falling in love; if she came to me with that, I
would know I had done my work aright. And now I see that I have failed.
If I had been her real mother I would have known better how to reach
her. It is a real motherhood to me, of course, but not to Caro—and
perhaps not even to David. So I must lie here and wait, like any other
outsider, till everybody knows how it turns out.
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