'Really,' said my uncle, staring round at me. 'Really. That is indeed
surprising.' And after a pause he added, 'Surprising and gratifying.'
'Why gratifying, Uncle Rudolph?' I inquired.
'When did she lose her husband?' he asked, taking no notice of my
inquiry.
The preliminary to an accurate answer to this question was, of course,
Which? But again a vision of Mrs. Barnes's imploring face rose before
me, and accordingly, restricting myself to Juchs, I said she had lost
him shortly before the war.
'Ah. So he was prevented, poor fellow, from having the honour of dying
for England.'
'Yes, Uncle Rudolph.'
'Poor fellow. Poor fellow.'
'Yes.'
'Poor fellow. Well, he was spared knowing what he had missed. At least
he was spared that. And she--his poor wife--how did she take it?'
'Well, I think.'
'Yes. I can believe it. She wouldn't--I am very sure she
wouldn't--intrude her sorrows selfishly on others.'
It was at this point that I became aware my uncle had fallen in love. Up
to this, oddly enough, it hadn't dawned on me. Now it did more than
dawned, it blazed.
I looked at him with a new and startled interest. 'Uncle Rudolph,' I
said impetuously, no longer a distrustful niece talking to an uncle she
suspects, but an equal with an equal, a human being with another human
being, 'haven't you ever thought of marrying again? It's quite a long
time now since Aunt Winifred--'
'Thought?' said my uncle, his voice sounding for the first time simply,
ordinarily human, without a trace in it of the fatal pulpit flavour,
'Thought? I'm always thinking of it.'
And except for his apron and gaiters he might have been any ordinary
solitary little man eating out his heart for a mate.
'But then why don't you? Surely a deanery of all places wants a wife in
it?'
'Of course it does Those strings or rooms--empty, echoing. It shouts
for a wife. Shouts, I tell you. At least mine does. But I've never
found--I hadn't seen--'
He broke off, biting at the stalk of grass.
'But I remember you,' I went on eagerly, 'always surrounded by flocks of
devoted women. Weren't any of them--?'
'No,' said my uncle shortly. And after a second of silence he said
again, and so loud that I jumped, 'No!' And then he went on even more
violently, 'They didn't give me a chance. They never let me alone a
minute. After Winifred's death they were like flies. Stuck to me--made
me sick--great flies crawling--' And he shuddered, and shook himself as
though he were shaking off the lot of them.
I looked at him in amazement. 'Why,' I cried, 'you're talking exactly
like a man!'
But he, staring at the view without seeing an inch of it, took no heed
of me, and I heard him say under his breath as though I hadn't been
there at all, 'My God, I'm so lonely at night!'
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