English fiction -- 19th century; Victoria, Queen of Great Britain, 1819-1901 -- Fiction
‘Ought? Because Mrs. Tomkins would cry _haro_! if her husband the
greengrocer wasn’t at her elbow day and night?’
‘Have more patience with me. I didn’t mean _ought_ in the vulgar
sense--I have as little respect for Mrs. Tomkins as you have. I don’t
want to interfere with your liberty for a moment; indeed it would be
very foolish, for I know that it would make you detest me. But I so
often want to speak to you--and--and then, I can’t quite feel that you
acknowledge me as your wife so long as I am away.’
Tarrant nodded.
‘I quite understand. The social difficulty. Well, there’s no doubt it is
a difficulty; I feel it on your account. I wish it were possible for
you to be invited wherever I am. Some day it will be, if I don’t get run
over in the Strand; but--’
‘I should like the invitations,’ Nancy broke in, ‘but you still don’t
understand me.’
‘Yes, I think I do. You are a woman, and it’s quite impossible for a
woman to see this matter as a man does. Nancy, there is not one wife in
fifty thousand who retains her husband’s love after the first year of
marriage. Put aside the fools and the worthless; think only of women
with whom you might be compared--brave, sensible, pure-hearted; they can
win love, but don’t know how to keep it.’
‘Why not put it the other way about, and say that men can love to begin
with, but so soon grow careless?’
‘Because I am myself an instance to the contrary.’
Nancy smiled, but was not satisfied.
‘The only married people,’ Tarrant pursued, ‘who can live together with
impunity, are those who are rich enough, and sensible enough, to have
two distinct establishments under the same roof. The ordinary eight or
ten-roomed house, inhabited by decent middle-class folk, is a gruesome
sight. What a huddlement of male and female! They are factories of
quarrel and hate--those respectable, brass-curtain-rodded sties--they
are full of things that won’t bear mentioning. If our income never rises
above that, we shall live to the end of our days as we do now.’
Nancy looked appalled.
‘But how can you hope to make thousands a year?’
‘I have no such hope; hundreds would be sufficient. I don’t aim at a
house in London; everything there is intolerable, except the fine old
houses which have a history, and which I could never afford. For
my home, I want to find some rambling old place among hills and
woods,--some house where generations have lived and died,--where my boy,
as he grows up, may learn to love the old and beautiful things about
him. I myself never had a home; most London children don’t know what is
meant by home; their houses are only more or less comfortable lodgings,
perpetual change within and without.’
‘Your thoughts are wonderfully like my father’s, sometimes,’ said Nancy.
‘From what you have told me of him, I think we should have agreed in a
good many things.’
‘And how unfortunate we were! If he had recovered from that illness,--if
he had lived only a few months,--everything would have been made easy.’
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