In Trust: The Story of a Lady and Her LoverOliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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In Trust: The Story of a Lady and Her Lover
Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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I would be a poor wretch, indeed, unworthy the honour you have
done me, if I could not trust you and bide my time.’
This letter was very carefully composed and with much thought. If Anne
could but have been made a convert to the code that all is fair in love,
what a relief it would have been; or if she could have divined the
embarrassment that a portionless bride, however much he loved her, would
be to Cosmo! But, on the other hand, there was no certainty that, even
if the worst came to the worst, she would be a portionless bride; and
the chances of alarming her, and bringing about a revulsion of feeling,
were almost more dreadful than the chances of losing her fortune. It
wanted very delicate steering to hit exactly the right passage between
those dangers, and Cosmo was far from confident that he had hit it. A
man with a practical mind and a real knowledge of the world has a great
deal to go through when he has to deal with the absolute in the person
of a young inexperienced and high-flown girl, altogether ignorant of the
world. And, as a matter of fact, the letter did not please Anne. It gave
her that uneasy sense of coming in contact with new agencies, powers
unknown, not to be judged by her previous canons, which is one of the
first disenchantments of life. How to lie and yet not be guilty of lying
was a new science to her. She did not understand that casuistry of love,
which makes it a light offence to deceive. She understood the art of
taking her own way, but that of giving up her own way, and yet resolving
to have it all the same, was beyond her power. What they wanted her to
do was to deceive her father, to wait--surely the most terrible of all
meanness--till he should be dead and then break her promise to him. This
was what Heathcote had advised, and now Cosmo--Cosmo himself replied to
her when she threw herself upon him for support, in the same sense. A
chill of disappointment, discouragement, came over her. If this was the
best thing to be done, it seemed to Anne that her own folly was better
than their wisdom. Had she been told that love and a stout heart and two
against the world were better than lands or wealth, she would have felt
herself strong enough for any heroism. But this dash of cold water in
her face confounded her. What did they mean by telling her to obey her
father? he had not asked for obedience. He had said, ‘If you do not give
up this man, I will take your fortune from you,’ and she had proudly
accepted the alternative. That was all; and was she to go back to him
now, to tell him a lie, and with a mental reservation say, ‘I prefer my
fortune; I have changed my mind; I will give him up?’ Anne knew that she
could not have survived the utter scorn of herself which would have been
her portion had she done this. Were it necessary to do it, the proud
girl would have waited till the other sacrifice was completed, till her
father had fulfilled his threat. Cosmo’s letter gave her a chill in the
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