In Trust: The Story of a Lady and Her LoverOliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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In Trust: The Story of a Lady and Her Lover
Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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Mount was soon turned upside down with all the excitement of packing. It
was a relief from the monotony which hangs about a house from which the
world is shut out, and where the family life is still circling round one
melancholy event. Days look like years in these circumstances; even when
the grief is of the deepest those who are left behind must do something
to keep the dulled wheels of life in motion, since not even the most
truly bereaved can die of grief when they will. But in the case of the
Mountfords the affliction was not excessive. Anne, whom her father had
wronged, perhaps mourned most of all, not because of more love, but more
depth of nature, which could not leave the old so lightly to turn to the
new, and which felt more awe and reverence for those mysterious changes
which alter the very face of life. Rose cried a great deal during the
first few days, and Mrs. Mountford still went on performing little acts
of devotion, going to look at her husband’s portrait, and thinking of
him as a mournful duty; but there was a certain excitement of new
existence in both their hearts. So long as he was there they were bound
to Mount, and all the old habits of their life--indeed never thought of
breaking them, or supposed it possible they could be broken; but now
they were free, and their smiles came back involuntarily as they
prepared for this exciting removal, the beginning of a new life. Anne’s
mind was kept in a graver key by many causes. The nameless and
causeless compunctions, remorses, which move the sensitive spirit in
profound and awe-stricken sympathy with the dead, were for her alone in
the house. She only tormented herself with thoughts of other
possibilities, of things that might have been done and were not done; of
words, nay even looks, which, had she but known how near her father was
to the unseen world, might have been modified or withheld; and she only
followed him, halting, uncertain, to the portals of the unseen
existence, as she had followed him to his grave. What was he doing
there? a man not heavenly, with qualities that were more suited for the
common soil below than the celestial firmament above. It was she only
who put these questions, not, perhaps as we have said, that she loved
him more, but that she felt more deeply, and everything that happened
was of more consequence to her. Besides, she had other causes of
gravity. Her position was more serious altogether. Even the new-made
widow had a straightforward path before her, lonely yet troubled by no
uncertainty--but Anne was walking in darkness, and did not comprehend
her lot.
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