In Trust: The Story of a Lady and Her LoverOliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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In Trust: The Story of a Lady and Her Lover
Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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patience and hope.’
As he folded this up his whole heart longed for the ‘word or two’ he
had asked for. Without that it almost seemed to him that all that had
passed before might mean nothing, might roll away like the mists, like
the fabric of a vision. But at the same time Cosmo felt in his heart
that if Anne would send him the consolation of this one letter through
Charley Ashley, and after that bid him be silent and wait for chance
opportunities or modes of communication, that she would do well. It was
what he would have advised her to do had he been free to tell her
exactly what he thought. But he was not free to advise such a
proceeding. It was not in his _rôle_; nor could he have proposed any
clandestine correspondence, though he would have liked it. It was
impossible. Anne would most probably have thrown him off as altogether
unworthy had he proposed anything of the kind to her, or at least would
have regarded him with very different eyes from those with which she
looked upon him now. And even independent of this he could not have done
it: the words would have failed him to make such a proposal. It was
contrary to all tradition, and to the spirit of his class and time.
When he had despatched this letter Cosmo’s bosom’s lord sat more lightly
upon his throne. He went out next morning very early and made a
respectable, a very respectable, bag. Nobody could say that he was a
cockney sportsman not knowing how to aim or hold a gun. In this as in
everything else he had succeeded in mastering the rules of every
fashion, and lived as a man who was to the manner born. He was indeed to
the manner born, with nothing in him, so far as he was aware, that went
against the traditions of a gentleman: and yet similar conversations to
that one which occurred in the smoking-room, occurred occasionally on
the hills among the heather. ‘Of what Douglasses is your friend?’ ‘Oh, I
don’t know that he is of any Douglasses,’ the master of the moor would
say with impatience. ‘He is a capital fellow, and a rising man in the
law--that’s all I know about him;’ or else, ‘He is a college friend, a
man who took a very good degree, as clever a fellow as you will meet
with, and getting on like a house on fire.’ But all these
recommendations, as they all knew, were quite beside the question. He
was of nowhere in particular--he was nobody. It was a mysterious
dispensation, altogether unexplainable, that such a man should have come
into the world without suitable ancestors who could have responded for
him. But he had done so. And he could not even produce that fabulous
house which, as he had invented it, was a far prettier and more truly
gentle and creditable family than half the families who would have
satisfied every question. Thus the very best quality of his age was
against him as well as its superstitions. Had he been an enriched grocer
to whom it could have done no possible good, he might easily have
invented a pedigree; but being himself he could not do it.
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