"As though I had suddenly become frozen," I answered. "It is the same
sensation as when I entered that room at Gloucester Square."
"Impossible!" she cried in alarm.
"Yes," I said; "it is unaccountable--quite unaccountable."
The circumstance was absolutely beyond credence. I stood there, for a
few minutes, leaning upon her arm, which she offered me, and slowly the
curious sensation died away, until a quarter of an hour afterwards I
found myself quite as vigorous as I had been before. Neither of us,
however, danced again, but lighting a cigar, I spent some time strolling
with her up and down the terrace, enjoying the calm, warm, starlit
night.
We discussed my mysterious seizure a good deal, but could arrive at no
conclusion.
After some hesitation I broached the subject which was very near my
heart.
"I have heard nothing of late of Chetwode," I said. "Where is he?"
"I don't know," she responded. "His regiment has left Hounslow for
York, you know."
"And he is in York?"
"I suppose so."
"Suppose! And yet you are to be his wife!" I exclaimed.
"Who told you that?" she asked quickly, halting and looking straight at
me.
"Every one discusses it," I answered. "They say he is to be your
husband very shortly. What would he say, I wonder, if he knew that you
and I frivol so much together?"
"What right has he to say anything regarding my actions? I am quite
free."
"Then he is not your lover?" I inquired in deep earnestness. "Tell me
the truth."
"Of course not. We have danced together and walked together, just as
you and I have done; but as for love--why, the thing is absurd."
"You do not love him?" I asked.
"Certainly not," she laughed. Then she added, "I never love. That is
why I am not like other women."
"Every woman denies the tender passion," I said, smiling.
"Well, I only tell you the truth," she responded, with a slight sigh.
"If every woman must love at one time in her life, there must of course
be some exceptions. I am one of them."
"Ah, you do yourself an injustice?" I declared. "Every woman has a
heart."
She was silent. Then, in a hard strained voice, she answered--
"True; but mine is like stone."
"Why? What has hardened it?"
"Ah, no!" she cried quickly. "You are always, trying to learn my
secret, but I can never tell you--never! Let us go in." And, without
another word, she passed through the French windows into the
billiard-room, where the usual game of pool was in progress and the
merry chatter was general.
Like that of her cousin, her nature was a complex one. The more I
strove to understand her the more utterly hopeless the analysis became.
I loved her--nay, in all the world there was but one woman for my eyes.
Superb in beauty and in grace, she was incomparable--perfect.
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