India : $b the pearl of Pearl RiverSouthworth, Emma Dorothy Eliza Nevitte
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India : $b the pearl of Pearl River
Southworth, Emma Dorothy Eliza Nevitte
Louisiana -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction
“Yes; it is superficially soft and impressible, but the core of it is
hard and rough—hard and rough! Oh, Rosalie, can’t you _try_ to like me a
little?”
“I like you very much without trying!”
“Oh, you know what I mean, you tormenting girl! Can’t you—you—can’t you
love me well enough to be my own? Speak! Answer! Tell me, Rose!”
“Oh, Robert, how many times have I told you—no?”
“I—but I won’t take no for an answer! All my affections and hopes are
freighted in you, and I _will not_ resign you; I _will not_, Rose. I
will go on hoping in spite of you—hoping against hope! It is
_impossible_—mind I say _impossible_—any one loving as I do, should not
win love in return. It does seem to me as if it would be unjust in
heaven to permit it!”
He spoke with impatient, passionate vehemence and earnestness.
Rosalie watched and heard him with wondering and sorrowing interest. She
gravely said—
“‘It is impossible that one loving so much should not win love in
return,’ you say? Yes, it _does_ seem impossible, if we did not know it
to be often really possible. It _does_ seem unjust!”
“You acknowledge it! You own it to be unjust that I should give you so
much—give you _all_—my entire heart, with all its affections and
hopes—and get back nothing, _nothing_ in return—or next to it—only
‘esteem,’ forsooth! and ‘friendship!’ That provokes and exasperates me
beyond endurance! Rosalie, I don’t want your esteem or friendship. I
refuse and repudiate it! I reject and repulse it! I will have none of
it! Give me _nothing_, or give me your whole heart and hand!”
“I would to Heaven I could do it, Robert! I would to Heaven I could give
you my heart. I am ready to say that if I could, I should then be a
happy and enviable girl, because I believe you a most excellent young
man, whose only weakness is your regard for me. But I cannot, Robert.
With all my friendship for you”—
“_Don’t_ name it!”
“I must, Robert! With all my friendship for you, when you talk of love,
my heart grows hard and cold, and silent as a stone—it has no response
for you at all.”
“And you say that to drive me out of my senses—to make me wild!”
“I say it because it is the simple truth. I am sorry that such _is_ the
truth. I think, with you, it is strange—strange—almost unjust, that so
much priceless love should be thrown away.”
“How cool she is! Good Heaven, how cool she is!”
“I have a problem for you, Robert; and I want to see if, with all your
mathematics, you can solve it, and satisfy me as to why there is so much
love lost in this world.”
“She can philosophise, too, after her fashion. She can do anything but
love!”
“Will you solve my problem?”
“It belongs rather to metaphysics than mathematics, one would
think—nevertheless, state it.”
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