France -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Marriage -- Fiction; Women -- France -- Fiction
"I cause you a vast deal of pain, poor Ralph! and you must be patient
beyond words to endure the spectacle of such egotistical, cowardly
misery as mine! Your unpleasant task was finished long ago. The most
insanely exacting woman could not ask of friendship more than you have
done for me. Now leave me to the misery that is gnawing at my heart; do
not spoil your pure and holy life by contact with an accursed life; try
to find elsewhere the happiness which cannot exist near me."
"I do in fact give up all hope of curing you, Indiana," he replied; "but
I will never abandon you even if you should tell me that I annoy you;
for you still require bodily care, and if you are not willing that I
should be your friend, I will at all events be your servant. But listen
to me; I have an expedient to propose to you which I have kept in
reserve for the last stage of the disease, but which certainly is
infallible."
"I know but one remedy for sorrow," she replied, "and that is
forgetting; for I have had time to convince myself that argument is
unavailing. Let us hope everything from time, therefore. If my will
could obey the gratitude which you inspire in me, I should be now as
cheerful and calm as in the days of our childhood; believe me, my
friend, I take no pleasure in nourishing my trouble and inflaming my
wound; do I not know that all my sufferings rebound on your heart? Alas!
I would like to forget, to be cured! but I am only a weak woman. Ralph,
be patient and do not think me ungrateful."
She burst into tears. Sir Ralph took her hand.
"Listen, dear Indiana," he said; "to forget is not in our power; I do
not accuse you! I can suffer patiently; but to see you suffer is beyond
my strength. Indeed, why should we struggle thus, weak creatures that we
are, against a destiny of iron? It is quite enough to drag this
cannon-ball; the God whom you and I adore did not condemn man to undergo
so much misery without giving him the instinct to escape from it; and
what constitutes, in my opinion, man's most marked superiority over the
brute is his ability to understand what the remedy is for all his ills.
The remedy is suicide; that is what I propose, what I advise."
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