France -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Marriage -- Fiction; Women -- France -- Fiction
"There is some truth in your portrait," said Indiana, "but there is
prejudice too. You boldly solve doubts which I should not dare to solve,
although I have known Ralph ever since I was born. It is true that his
great defect consists in looking frequently through the eyes of others;
but that is not the fault of his mind but of his education. You think
that, without education, he would have been an absolute nonentity; I
think that he would have been less so than he is. I must tell you one
fact in his life which will help to explain his character. He was
unfortunate to have a brother whom his parents openly preferred to him;
this brother had all the brilliant qualities that he lacks. He learned
easily, he had a taste for all the arts, he fairly sparkled with wit;
his face, while less regular than Ralph's, was more expressive. He was
affectionate, zealous, active, in a word, he was lovable. Ralph, on the
contrary, was awkward, melancholy, undemonstrative; he loved solitude,
learned slowly and did not make a display of what little knowledge he
possessed. When his parents saw how different he was from his older
brother, they maltreated him; they did worse than that: they humiliated
him. Thereupon, child as he was, his character became gloomy and pensive
and an unconquerable timidity paralyzed all his faculties. They had
succeeded in inspiring in him self-aversion and self-contempt; he became
discouraged with life, and, at the age of fifteen, he was attacked by
the spleen, a malady that is wholly physical under the foggy sky of
England, wholly mental under the revivifying sky of Ile Bourbon. He has
often told me that one day he left the house with a determination to
throw himself into the sea; but as he sat on the shore collecting his
thoughts, as he was on the point of carrying out his plan, he saw me
coming toward him in the arms of the negress who had been my nurse. I
was then five years old. I was pretty, they say, and I manifested a
predilection for my taciturn cousin which nobody shared. To be sure, he
was attentive and kind to me in a way I was not accustomed to in my
father's house. As we were both unhappy, we understood each other even
then. He taught me his father's language, and I lisped mine to him. This
blending of Spanish and English may be said to express Ralph's
character. When I threw my arms around his neck, I saw that he was
weeping, and, without knowing why, I began to weep too. Thereupon he
pressed me to his heart and, so he told me afterward, made a vow to live
for me, a neglected if not hated child, to whom his friendship would at
all events be a kindness and his life of some benefit. Thus I was the
first and only tie in his sad life. After that day we were hardly ever
apart; we passed our days leading a free and healthy life in the
solitude of the mountains. But perhaps these tales of our childhood bore
you, and you would prefer to join the hunt and have a gallop."
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