Innocent : $b a tale of modern lifeOliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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Innocent : $b a tale of modern life
Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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Innocent had remained quite unconscious that she was the subject of this
conversation. She was still a little in doubt even of the words of a
dialogue carried on by others. The quickness of utterance which strikes
every one when hearing an unaccustomed language, the half completed
phrases, the words half said, confused her mind, which was not equal to
such a strain, and her want of interest in the matter limited her
comprehension tenfold more. She sat with her profile marked out against
the light, the line of the curtains falling just beyond her, the garden
furnishing a vague background, until some time after Frederick had left
the room. She had scarcely moved while she sat there; there was nothing
to look at, nothing to occupy her, but that did not matter to Innocent.
When Frederick was gone she, too, moved a little, and after a few
minutes stole out and up-stairs like a ghost. She went to her room,
stealing through Nelly’s, where her cousin was occupied about some of
the little legitimate Sunday employments which a good English girl may
permit herself on a rainy Sunday. Nelly made some little friendly
observation, but Innocent glided past and closed the door upon her.
Innocent, however, had nothing to do; she sat down by the fireplace,
where, Mrs. Eastwood being extravagant in this particular, there burned
a cheery little fire. But the fire was no comfort to her. So far as she
had any feeling at all, she disliked the warm little room, with all its
cushions and curtains, and its position so close to her cousin’s. Now
and then she thought of the cold and bare rooms at the Palazzo
Scaramucci, so large and empty, and lonely, with something like a sigh.
Her life there, which was so void of any interest, so blank and
companionless, came back upon her as if it had been something better,
more natural than this. There no one bade her talk, bade her do
anything; no one cared what she was about. She might stand for hours at
the window, looking out, and no one would chide her or ask why she did
so. Books and music, and such perplexing additions to life, had no
existence there: and in Pisa there was room enough to move about, and
air enough to breathe. With the help of a scaldino, and the old velvet
cloak, which she kept in her box now, she had been able to keep the cold
at bay; but here she grew drowsy over the fire, and had no need for her
cloak. There too she might do what she pleased, and no one ever said
Why?--no one except Niccolo, who did not matter. Whereas now she could
not go in or out of her room without being observed, without having
somebody to peep at her and to say, “Ah, it is you.” What did it matter
who it was? If people would but let her alone! I do not know how long
she had been alone, shut up in the little room, when Nelly knocked at
the door. During the short time since Innocent’s arrival Nelly had gone
through a great many different states of mind respecting her. She had
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