Innocent : $b a tale of modern lifeOliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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Innocent : $b a tale of modern life
Oliphant, Mrs. (Margaret)
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“That was a very foolish business of yours last night,” he said, but in
a softer tone; “you must not do such things. I daresay it is dull for
you here. You don’t enter into their life, and there is nothing of your
own to interest you. But still you know girls have to put up with that.
It may be hard, but still they have to do it. I suppose when you are
married it is expected that you should have it made up to you. At least
this is the ordinary state of affairs; girls have to put up with it. I
cannot take you to my club, you know, or to the--other places--where I
go.”
“I did not want you to take me,” said Innocent, surprised.
“I am glad to hear it,” said Frederick. He did not believe her any more
than the maids did. He smiled a little within himself at the idea that
she was yielding to a conviction of the necessity for pretence. He was
half amused by this, and rather more flattered than before. She must be
beginning, he thought, to feel half a woman, to understand that she must
not say and do everything that came into her head, with the freedom
permitted to himself, for instance. “I was going to speak to you very
seriously,” he went on, “but as you are trying to make friends with the
others, and to do better, I will not worry you. What I said is for your
good, Innocent--which is not to be obtained by your usual way of doing
what pleases yourself, but by yielding to others and trying to be
content with what is thought good for you. This may be hard--(N.B.
Frederick certainly had never tried)--but it is the only way for a girl
to get on. You must manage somehow to make friends of your own sex.”
Frederick dwelt upon this aphorism with some pride. He felt that it was
original, and did him credit, and its wisdom gratified him. On the whole
he was pleased with himself while he delivered his little address.
Instead of taking advantage of the girl’s fondness for him, as some men
might have done, he was doing his utmost to lead her in the paths of
virtue. Whether she or any one else appreciated it, he at least did. He
was so far softened by the sense of his own goodness, that when he had
finished breakfast, he put his hand kindly upon her shoulder while he
said “Good morning,” and finding her face near his and turned towards
him, kissed her for the first time with much benevolence of feeling.
Innocent’s face grew suddenly red under this salute. She was not angry,
she was not pleased--she did not know how to receive it; but a sudden
flush of colour answered to the light and somewhat careless touch.
Frederick himself went off half laughing, half confused. He said to
himself that the girl was growing into a woman, that she had developed
very quickly since he had brought her home. “I must mind what I am
about,” he said to himself. Perhaps, on the whole, in giving this kiss
he had gone just a very little too far. And Frederick felt that there
was a deep responsibility upon him. He must not delude his cousin with
hopes that never could be realized.
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