The wife trembled; she felt as if she was being dragged through prickly
bramble-bushes. Her husband considered a sinner! She flushed with
shame, wished to speak, but was silent. She was afraid; she had not the
power. But why did God keep silent? Why did God let such things be?
If she should take the letter and read it aloud, then the stream of
poison would be turned. The venom would sprinkle upon her. The horror
of death came over her. She did not dare. She half wished that an
insolent hand had been thrust into her pocket and had drawn out the
letter. She could not give herself as a prize. Within the workshop was
heard a shoemaker’s hammer. Did no one hear how it hammered in triumph?
She had heard that hammering and had been vexed by it the whole day.
But none of the women understood it. Omniscient God, hast Thou no
servant who could read hearts? She would gladly accept her sentence, if
only she did not need to confess. She wished to hear some one say: “Who
has given you the idea to lie before God?” She listened for the sound
of the young men’s footsteps in order to fall down and die.
Several years after this a divorced woman was married to a shoemaker,
who had been apprentice to her husband. She had not wished it, but had
been drawn to it, as a pickerel is drawn to the side of a boat when it
has been caught on the line. The fisherman lets it play. He lets it
rush here and there. He lets it believe it is free. But when it is
tired out, when it can do no more, then he drags with a light pull,
then he lifts it up and jerks it down into the bottom of the boat
before it knows what it is all about.
The wife of the absconded shoemaker had dismissed her apprentice and
wished to live alone. She had wished to show her husband that she was
innocent. But where was her husband? Did he not care for her
faithfulness. She suffered want. Her child went in rags. How long did
her husband think that she could wait? She was unhappy when she had no
one upon whom she could depend.
Erikson succeeded. He had a shop in the town. His shoes stood on glass
shelves behind broad plate-glass windows. His workshop grew. He hired
an apartment and put plush furniture in the parlor. Everything waited
only for her. When she was too wearied of poverty, she came.
She was very much afraid in the beginning. But no misfortunes befell
her. She became more confident as time went on and more happy. She had
people’s regard, and knew within herself that she had not deserved it.
That kept her conscience awake, so that she became a good woman.
Her first husband, after some years, came back to the house in the
suburbs. It was still his, and he settled down again there and wished
to begin work. But he got no work, nor would anybody have anything to
do with him. He was despised, while his wife enjoyed great honor. It
was nevertheless he who had done right, and she who had done wrong.
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