London (England) -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction; Upper class -- Fiction
“You will blame me for my delay in replying to your letter; I can only
excuse myself by begging you to reflect how difficult it is to answer at
all. I wrote to you for the last time five months ago, and you did not
reply, or at all events no letter from you reached me. I put a certain
interpretation upon your silence; that which, you must admit, your
previous tone naturally suggested. I implore you not to misunderstand
these words. I mean nothing less than an ungenerous reproach. No blame
can possibly attach to you; circumstances alone have led us to the
position we at present occupy with regard to each other. Circumstances
have held us apart; must they part us finally?”
Vincent paused at this point: “I’m hanged if I couldn’t write a book,”
he said to himself. “Well turned, those sentences, and they come so
easy. I dare say the Amontillado has something to do with it.”
He proceeded:
“I can well understand a certain delicacy which has kept you silent so
long; perhaps my last letter erred in the same direction, and you took
for coldness what was merely an ill expression of my deep respect. You
ask me now in what light I regard our relations to each other. Shall
I answer that I have no will but yours, and that you have not
mis-estimated me in conveying so delicately the wish you are too
generous to express as a demand? Circumstances have treated us cruelly;
to whom are not circumstances cruel at one time or another? Our
misfortune is that they have declared themselves hostile in a matter of
the gravest moment. Which of us could say what utterance on either side,
what instant in our relations, had the influence we both feel to have
been so fatal? My life has been an unhappy one; your letter makes
it clear to me that I must go my way with one more sad, the saddest,
memory. I cannot reproach myself; it is still less possible to reproach
you. There is a fate in these things; you feel it yourself. I wish my
loss were no heavier than your own. I never was worthy of you, and of
that you must be conscious. I may have abilities, but they are very poor
compared with yours, and, such as they are, I have made a poor use of
them. That you should desire to be free from the bonds, which, you so
nobly say, you still deem binding, is only natural; you deserve, and
will win, devotion of a higher kind than my nature is capable of. In
plain English, I am a sorry fellow. You know it. Let us say no more.”
At this point he made no internal comment, but hurried on to the end.
“Some day we shall, I trust, meet as friends; that is a privilege I
shall covet. I am not incapable of appreciating high things, whether
in character or in art. I think of you with reverence. Perhaps you will
come to think, at all events, with tolerant kindness, of
“Yours very sincerely,
“Vincent Lacour.”
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Elsewhere in the archive
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account