Was, then, woman the utterly unmoral creature as depicted by the German
pessimists? he asked himself, as he tossed under his reading lamp, unable
to sleep or read. At the end of an hour he was out of bed, and into his
medicine case. Five grains of opium he took straight. An hour later,
afraid of his thoughts and the prospect of a sleepless night, he took
another grain. At one-hour intervals he twice repeated the grain dosage.
But so slow was the action of the drug that dawn had broken ere his eyes
closed.
At seven he was awake again, dry-mouthed, feeling stupid and drowsy, yet
incapable of dozing off for more than several minutes at a time. He
abandoned the idea of sleep, ate breakfast in bed, and devoted himself to
the morning papers and the magazines. But the drug effect held, and he
continued briefly to doze through his eating and reading. It was the
same when he showered and dressed, and, though the drug had brought him
little forgetfulness during the night, he felt grateful for the dreaming
lethargy with which it possessed him through the morning.
It was when his wife arose, her serene and usual self, and came in to
him, smiling and roguish, delectable in her kimono, that the whim-madness
of the opium in his system seized upon him. When she had clearly and
simply shown that she had nothing to tell him under their ancient compact
of frankness, he began building his opium lie. Asked how he had slept,
he replied:
“Miserably. Twice I was routed wide awake with cramps in my feet. I was
almost too afraid to sleep again. But they didn’t come back, though my
feet are sorer than blazes.”
“Last year you had them,” she reminded him.
“Maybe it’s going to become a seasonal affliction,” he smiled. “They’re
not serious, but they’re horrible to wake up to. They won’t come again
till to-night, if they come at all, but in the meantime I feel as if I
had been bastinadoed.”
* * * * *
In the afternoon of the same day, Lee and Ida Barton made their shallow
dive from the Outrigger beach, and went on, at a steady stroke, past the
diving-stage to the big water beyond the Kanaka Surf. So quiet was the
sea that when, after a couple of hours, they turned and lazily started
shoreward through the Kanaka Surf they had it all to themselves. The
breakers were not large enough to be exciting, and the last languid
surf-boarders and canoeists had gone in to shore. Suddenly, Lee turned
over on his back.
“What is it?” Ida called from twenty feet away.
“My foot—cramp,” he answered calmly, though the words were twisted out
through clenched jaws of control.
The opium still had its dreamy way with him, and he was without
excitement. He watched her swimming toward him with so steady and
unperturbed a stroke that he admired her own self-control, although at
the same time doubt stabbed him with the thought that it was because she
cared so little for him, or, rather, so much immediately more for
Grandison.
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